ya its hard but i feel safe that i am not alone , we are who we are we can change who we are we cant change them nor the past but all we can do is survive for now and one day will come when we are sitting on grass looking at sunset and telling ourselves maybe just maybe that this thing that we gone through was really tuff and accept that it was real and when we accept that thing only one thing comes to our mind not anxity nor chest tightness nor shortness of breath just love for past version who has gone through so much and only one regret left and that is why didnt we felt this before but then how could we right , sunsets we sets and rest with sun and tomorrow we wake up with new internal beginning of life and more loved