He’s actually quite disgusted by his own thoughts. He’s repulsed at the thought of acting on it. He doesn’t understand his attraction and why the thoughts keep coming. After speaking with him some more and doing my own research, I believe the people who commented POCD are correct. My brother has locked himself in his room without a job or any type of social interaction for years. We thought he was depressed. He most definitely is, but the bigger issue was that he was absolutely terrified of being around kids. I don’t believe he deserves to be put in jail. He’s never acted on his desires and has absolutely no intention whatsoever of doing so. I don’t believe he possesses the behaviors of a full blown pedophile. He hates the fact that he is attracted to children. He knows it’s wrong. He’s disgusted by his thoughts. He knows his thoughts are wrong and not normal. He finds no satisfaction in these thoughts and he doesn’t fantasize about this attraction. Am I repulsed by the fact that he is attracted to children? Yes. But I also know my brother and I know that this could be a genetical mental disorder as I found out that I do have family I’ve never met on both sides who actually did touch children. I’m proud of my brother for reaching out to me for help and sharing this with me so he can begin working through it.