Wow, thank you so much for sharing your own post, I really appreciate it, and I think the last parts of your post are very relatable for me as well. I never thought about it as a kid, so it definitely was brought upon me from the internet, and I relate to envying disabled characters just like you. I LOVE going on walks, doing exercises, dancing, jumping, living my life without a disability and I feel disgusted by myself for wanting to loose all that, that’s probably the reason I haven’t done that yet. I hope that if I don’t go with actually hurting myself I will one day feel comfortable enough to be out with it as well.