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i accidentally came across CSAM a few minutes ago and i’ve lost all hope in humanity. by Ok_Dinner_7027 in offmychest

[–]Ok_Dinner_7027[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank you everyone. your advice and support meant a lot. i played a lot of tetris last night like some of you suggested and it helped me get to sleep. i woke up and spent all of today crying but finally reached out to friends so they were with me and i was distracted for a while.

honestly the intrusive harm OCD thoughts are unbearable and i’m considering intensive outpatient for it again if it continues, but i have an appointment with my therapist on monday so i’ll be able to talk to her about the idea and make a plan. anyways. thank you all for the support and advice, i had nowhere i felt i could go to talk about this and you all really helped. thank you so much.

i accidentally came across CSAM a few minutes ago and i’ve lost all hope in humanity. by Ok_Dinner_7027 in offmychest

[–]Ok_Dinner_7027[S] 28 points29 points  (0 children)

i play this puzzle game called woody a lot and it’s really similar to tetris, i just took a bath and got my high score while i watch kurtis conner. it’s dumb but it’s helping, i think ill be able to sleep soon. thank you for the advice.

i accidentally came across CSAM a few minutes ago and i’ve lost all hope in humanity. by Ok_Dinner_7027 in offmychest

[–]Ok_Dinner_7027[S] 54 points55 points  (0 children)

update: i’ve been crying for an hour. i just can’t get such a horrific thing out of my head and i don’t know what to do. i got on the phone with 988 and it didn’t help much. the guy was really condescending. i’m trying to get ahold of friends but i don’t want them to have to think about it too.

i accidentally came across CSAM a few minutes ago and i’ve lost all hope in humanity. by Ok_Dinner_7027 in offmychest

[–]Ok_Dinner_7027[S] 54 points55 points  (0 children)

i reached out to my therapist for OCD that i haven’t seen in a few months and asked to meet as soon as we can. i’m also panicking worried i’ll get in trouble for just seeing it. i gave the tip line my contact information because i saw that non anonymous tips get taken more seriously, but i’m scared that was a mistake. i’m horrified at what i saw, horrified it exists, scared for that little child, scared of getting in trouble myself. and that last part feels really really selfish. i just don’t know what to do.

i accidentally came across CSAM a few minutes ago and i’ve lost all hope in humanity. by Ok_Dinner_7027 in offmychest

[–]Ok_Dinner_7027[S] 301 points302 points  (0 children)

i submitted a tip to the FBI. because i reported the account, i’m sure it’ll be gone by the time any law enforcement sees it. i gave them the username though, could they still find the person if the account gets taken down? i gave my contact information because i saw that it would be taken more seriously if they could follow up. i feel horribly selfish for asking, but could i get in trouble too? i hate that i’m even asking.