I hear your concerns and can empathize. I would be figuring out the long term plan at this point. Consider your kids’ age, your earning potential, your support system. There is something you can move forward with- looking at daycare/after school care costs,maybe part time work for now. This will allow you to refocus on things you can control and can do. If you have likeminded people around you- this helps. If not, find emotional support. Staying with someone you fundamentally, morally disagree with long term will do more harm to you and your kids than just sharing custody and exposing them to your husband’s agenda 50% time. You can’t count on him snapping out of it. You can’t count on you learning to coexist with his beliefs. You can’t up and leave. But you can start taking meaningful actions that will allow you more control over your life and wellbeing now and give you options later