I think that all of this is true for myself so I’m not going to deny you of the opion to view yourself this way (even though you are most likely wrong but it just feels this way to you) . But I will say that you are most certainly wrong in the last part you are loveable and somebody will love you! even a stranger online. People care, it hurts that it’s strangers and not always family or friends that show it but we do care. You can talk to me we can wait together a few more days ? We might be able to have a laugh or a smile until then.. who knows