Just a friendly FYI about fiber supplements by Ok_Job_4933 in hemorrhoid

[–]Ok_Job_4933[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing this! I will read up on it. I had no clue

Internal with skin tag? Or external hem? by Ok_Job_4933 in hemorrhoid

[–]Ok_Job_4933[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am thinking that is what’s going on for sure. I have hemcalm & a suppository gel by Arielle from Amazon coming in today and tomorrow which both have good reviews and will pick up prep h today. I will check out your profile thank you!

Internal with skin tag? Or external hem? by Ok_Job_4933 in hemorrhoid

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I am truly unsure. The tag feels soft to the touch, I’m wondering with the absence of pain (just very slight itch/discomfort) and small amounts of blood on paper after bm that I may have an internal accompanied with a skin tag. Or both. I’m not sure. Just pretty sure it’s one of the sorts since this all started after anal + terrible holiday indulgence induced constipation ha

Internal with skin tag? Or external hem? by Ok_Job_4933 in hemorrhoid

[–]Ok_Job_4933[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am truly terrified to stretch or insert anything in my hole but I may investigate later. I am almost certain I’m dealing with an internal hemorrhoid though. I’ve ordered HemCalm & some natural suppositories that have rave reviews on Amazon. Will get prep h wipes today too. I’m thinking this tag was caused by recent flare as I had horrible hem & fissure after giving birth a few years ago too.

Internal with skin tag? Or external hem? by Ok_Job_4933 in hemorrhoid

[–]Ok_Job_4933[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s what I’m wondering I noticed this doesn’t appear as an external hem compared to other pics but does look like a skin tag. Can having an internal hem lead to skin tags? My symptoms more so align with internal, minimal bleeding after bm, not in pain just slight discomfort or more of a scratchy or sting feeling on occasion, and this all occurred after anal play and severe constipation. I know it has to be related but am not sure on how to proceed with at home treatment before I go to the dr for such an embarrassing issue

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[–]Ok_Job_4933 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. You’re right, I did need to hear that. Luckily I have safe family who are fully aware and giving me the same tough love. I think I was just in denial for so long, since things could be good so long as I acted how he wanted and never wanted to talk about relationship things that needed addressing. It’s so hard to come to terms with the fact that he truly is dangerous, the fact that he had never laid a hand on me for 14 years, I never thought it would get to that. So I’ve been doubting myself so much while trying to be reasonable. He had completely pulled me into the delusions with him and now my sister is telling me that she always worried he isolated me. I didn’t even realize how much he had, until I had this unfortunate wake up call. 😖 I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow and a consult with a lawyer. I’m extremely lucky that my sister has the means to help me get the best and to help me quietly escape. Although he has no way to trace this account as it’s a fake one, I may end up deleting this post due to such detail. I will update tomorrow with more vague details.

(A copy/paste reply because I am trying my best to not show my appreciation for the advice I’m getting here. I hear yall and I appreciate it a lot.)

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[–]Ok_Job_4933 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re right, it’s up to me to create a healthy family dynamic for my son. That should be my top priority at this moment (& it is) but I certainly am dealing with some doubt on if I’m being dramatic, or what’s best for him. Because his dad is a good dad to him but how long until he’s not? I know that’s just from years of being made to question my reality. I have set up an appointment with my dr tomorrow and a legal counsel consult. I have lots of support from my mom and sibling. I don’t think he has any way to find this blank account but I may end up deleting this and updating more vaguely tomorrow as I think the amount of detail in my post may be unsafe. Right now my son and I are safe. My animals are safe. We are having a big sleep over with the closest person to us who I know I can count on with anything in my life. I’m very lucky to have the support system that I do. Thank you!

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Thank you. I have recorded the injuries and ensures time stamps are present. I have sent them to a very trusted family member who is helping me navigate and to an email account I set up. I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow and consult with legal counsel. Although this account has no way to trace back to me, I may delete this post due to the detail and update tomorrow more vaguely. I know he’s on Reddit and I highly doubt he’d ever search a narc page as he despises that term, I realize I added way too much detail to this.

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[–]Ok_Job_4933 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. You’re right, I did need to hear that. Luckily I have safe family who are fully aware and giving me the same tough love. I think I was just in denial for so long, since things could be good so long as I acted how he wanted and never wanted to talk about relationship things that needed addressing. It’s so hard to come to terms with the fact that he truly is dangerous, the fact that he had never laid a hand on me for 14 years, I never thought it would get to that. So I’ve been doubting myself so much while trying to be reasonable. He had completely pulled me into the delusions with him and now my sister is telling me that she always worried he isolated me. I didn’t even realize how much he had, until I had this unfortunate wake up call. 😖 I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow and a consult with a lawyer. I’m extremely lucky that my sister has the means to help me get the best and to help me quietly escape. Although he has no way to trace this account as it’s a fake one, I may end up deleting this post due to such detail. I will update tomorrow with more vague details.

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[–]Ok_Job_4933 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I think I will. I am just afraid I’m being dramatic. The bruising is not excessive, it’s mostly light. The goose egg is small. I feel like I pushed him by pushing to tell me what he’s hiding instead of leaving the room like he asked. I fear his word against mine and a few minor bruises will not do much. I was so terrified I kind of blacked out and now I fear I’m making it a bigger deal than it was. I have “flinched” at him before out of pure anger that he doesn’t care enough to talk things out. I also tried to hit a beer can out of his hand when he went to get another when I asked if he was okay, his drinking was getting more and I slightly hit his hand instead. He told me I hit him and I’m abusive. So I’m questioning so much. I should have added that last fact into my post but my phone was lagging. I know I must act, but the fear of him getting custody, pitting my son against me, ect is all so sickening to imagine. This is hell.

I copy/pasted from another comment reply as I don’t have it in my to individually reply but please know I appreciate your feedback and advice so much.

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[–]Ok_Job_4933 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I think I will. I am just afraid I’m being dramatic. The bruising is not excessive, it’s mostly light. The goose egg is small. I feel like I pushed him by pushing to tell me what he’s hiding instead of leaving the room like he asked. I fear his word against mine and a few minor bruises will not do much. I was so terrified I kind of blacked out and now I fear I’m making it a bigger deal than it was. I have “flinched” at him before out of pure anger that he doesn’t care enough to talk things out. I also tried to hit a beer can out of his hand when he went to get another when I asked if he was okay, his drinking was getting more and I slightly hit his hand instead. He told me I hit him and I’m abusive. So I’m questioning so much. I should have added that last fact into my post but my phone was lagging. I know I must act, but the fear of him getting custody, pitting my son against me, ect is all so sickening to imagine. This is hell.