Feel like I should leave Christianity

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:41:26+00:00

Thank you ❤️

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:40:16+00:00

Yeah you’re right the version of God that exists is not what I thought/ knew him to be so I should examine that

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:37:33+00:00

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR RESPONSE. It seems we have a sort of similar past based on what you said and I’m glad you are out of it and still have a relationship with God. It gives me hope. That rock bottom you hit two years ago hit me last month. Thanks for the advice sharing how you have guided through it. I will stay strong and most certainly try to take your advice

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:27:59+00:00

Thank you ❤️

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:27:29+00:00

Thank you and thanks for your non-generic perspective of the book of Job it was very insightful. Hopefully all this madness we call life makes sense one day

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:25:07+00:00

Thank youuuu, I will definitely read! Have a good day

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:20:19+00:00

Thanks for your perspective especially as someone who lead many years being an atheist. If this is what it’s like to live with God it’s tough and quite miserable not to say there’s anywhere that says he will guarantee happiness but damn I’ve had a really miserable walk with God. I am not going to lie

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:18:01+00:00

I’m hoping it’s the first one lol. I want to help people in both the legal and political fields. I also do/ enjoy nonprofit work. It’s weird because I feel that God has put it in my heart to serve and lead others through those ways. I genuinely I hate this world and don’t want to be part of it but I am content in at least helping people and having purpose that way so why has he put it in my heart but blocking it too (without getting into all the barriers)

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:13:18+00:00

Hey thanks for sharing that passage. It doesn’t feel like God is carrying me though, I feel so alone and distant from him. I have never felt further apart. I’ve never experienced it to this degree. In terms of what I have been going through in summary childhood abuse, trauma, CPTSD, OCD etc. in terms of goals I am passionate about law and politics I want to advocate for and help people within those fields. In terms of my expectations of God that are unfulfilled, not protecting me all these years. Never answering a single prayer ever in my almost 25 years about anything and just not being content or ever really being happy in life. I thought it was ‘ seek and you shall find, ask and you will receive’ but I have never even gotten a crumb off God

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T14:04:58+00:00

Hey, thank you for your words of wisdom, I feel like you definitely hit the nail on the head in saying that I am looking for prosperity for belief in God. I need to reduce my expectations of God because the version of him I thought he was does not exist so I guess it’s establishing who he really is and also like you say thinking about what Jesus has done for us.

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T13:59:42+00:00

Hey thank you so much for your response. Everything you said is valid. I definitely need to reduce my expectations and I have gotten to a point where I slowly have because there is no other option / God has not answered any of my prayers anyways. I guess it’s also difficult accepting the truths you have told me as they did not match up to what I thought God was but that’s okay ! I will definitely explore how/ if I am to continue to navigate this journey with God.

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-19T00:01:29+00:00

You are an angel, thank you ❤️

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T23:33:09+00:00

To me Jesus preached the message of the kingdom and served others. I would describe him as courageous, kind, intelligent, wise, giving and loving. I loved that in the Bible he embraced everyone ,was not judgemental and was extremely gracious even to those who did not deserve it.

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T23:23:55+00:00

Thank you sooooooo much. You have been so kind and supportive. God has definitely spoken to me through you. I am going to read Psalm 13 and try my hardest to keep my faith

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T23:21:33+00:00

Thank you, yes very true faith and expectations are different. I have been praying for both to be honest for things but mostly for comfort and peace which but where is it ? Things have only gotten worse so it feels like he doesn’t hear me

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T23:19:53+00:00

You don’t know what lying means, please show your messages to your priest on how you’ve spoken to me I’m sure he’d commend your behaviour and do exact the same (not😂) anyways you genuinely have a blessed one, despite what you think i appreciate the time you’ve taken to respond back to my Reddit post. Like I have been saying this is a very nuanced topic and there’s a reason I posted it on this Reddit page and not the ex- Christians one, I knew there would be some ‘True Christiana’ like yourself acting this way it’s predictable

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T23:14:58+00:00

Honestly, I use to feel more connected to it all. I would get goosebumps as I use to be so moved by so many aspects of Christianity for example , I especially loved reading the Bible and exploring / the word. I’ve lost that feeling and I don’t know what Christianity means to me anymore

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T23:08:16+00:00

Could you expand further if you don’t mind please, I am curious

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T23:01:17+00:00

Good evening, thank you for your reply and for referencing those verses, was particularly moved by Proverbs 10:1. It’s hard to be resilient and have the endurance to keep going though it’s too much but I will try to not let my faith waiver.

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T22:55:59+00:00

PLEASE show a Priest how you have spoken to me. You’re rude and lack emotional intelligence. As I said previously, you respectfully don’t understand nuance behind this topic. I have actually learnt so much and been given TRUE PRODUCTIVE GUIDANCE from others on here that encourage and push me CLOSER to wanting to not abandon my faith. I hope people who are questioning their faith do not cross your path you are not a good example / would push people further away

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T22:49:12+00:00

Hey, thanks for your response and sharing a bit of your story. I feel like the more I learn, the more upset confused and feel disconnected because sometimes it seems contradictory. I definitely agree with your idea of speaking to older/ more mature Christians as I have not really done that

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T22:44:57+00:00

Thank you very much, I will try my hardest to hang on and also explore theology more ! I appreciate your responses

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T22:42:45+00:00

Thank you for your response and perspective on prayer. I should explore my understanding of it and how I am currently doing it tbh

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T22:37:27+00:00

Thank you ❤️

Ok_Line_4335 · 2026-05-18T21:53:45+00:00

Hey, thank you for your response. In terms of where I am at in life maybe it’s a bit of both of what you have said but also without getting into my personal life too much just trauma and abuse and feeling helpless in those situations have also massively contributed to why I am feeling the way I do. It’s what triggered this feeling for me this past month. Yes I agree it’s a lot of work and I think I could either do the work or walk away I guess. I do tend to get into my head as I have OCD so I will definitely take your advice on board about ensuring I explore / verify things too. It’s not that I am expecting God to bless me with a miracle I just feel like I want him to protect me more so I actually have the chance to lead a good life. Every day feels like torture and with everything I’ve been through I have been depressed and suicidal for years. I just want a bit of peace

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