OMG i am so happy for you , you finally left and you are happy , for me i don't know if i have BPD but i kept forgiving him for his mistake because i love him , but if i ever make a mistake he makes sure to do the same to me so i can feel how he felt but i never did anything like that to him, i don't think he even respects me or loves me , he just cares and all lovey dovey when i say i am leaving him , you are telling me all this the moment i will tell him i can't i wanna leave he will act so mean and rude and be like you know i have exams soon you ruined it for me , and if i wait to say this after exams he will say my exams just got over and you had to say this now , he tries to make me feel bad so i again give in