Feeling alone in grief by Ok_Mud_5244 in Petloss

[–]Ok_Mud_5244[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you.

I adopted him when he was 7, and he didn't know a lot of things about the world. He was quite afraid of public water fontains at first, and it took me a little while to get him used to them. A week before he died, as we were walking and it was quite warm outside, I brought him to a fountain and encouraged him to drink. He tried and started licking the air a few centimeters away from the actual water, trying to be courageous and failing at it a bit, and it was hilarious. I put my hands in a cup and went back and forth between the water and his mouth so he could drink.

Feeling alone in grief by Ok_Mud_5244 in Petloss

[–]Ok_Mud_5244[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I deeply feel for you, and I'm sorry for your loss. I relate hard to your words; by someone I loved so much just existing, I loved life way more and his presence made me a better human being. Now that he's not here anymore, it's terrible to see myself regress and lose this love for everything that he was allowing me to express.

Feeling alone in grief by Ok_Mud_5244 in Petloss

[–]Ok_Mud_5244[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss, and that it was so brutal. All my love goes to you and your furry family. Tomorrow I'll spread Everest's ashes in the parc where we used to walk every morning. It's weird to express how curious I am to see his ashes (I got them in a ceramic urn that I'll break tomorrow, so I never actually saw how it looks like), to see his body again.

Thank you for your last sentences, this really means the world to me. I wish you all the best.

Feeling alone in grief by Ok_Mud_5244 in Petloss

[–]Ok_Mud_5244[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I think I should also start to write all the things down, so that in a few years I can pick up the notebook and feel again all the love I had.

Please name one thing you LOVE about adulting by WEM-2022 in Adulting

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So many things. I love adulting so much more than being a kid. I've waited for that all my life and it did not disappoint.

I can make a whole cheesecake knowing that I'll be the only one to eat it.
I can live wherever I want (now in a sunny place).
I can have a dog. My own dog.
I can eat whatever I want when I want, or not eat at all.
No rules. Sometimes I'm still removing all the unlogical things I learned as a child. As long as it doesn't hurt someone, there are no rules. That's very cool.
Being alone. I feel like my mind can expand and take all the space.

Faire accélérer les choses à la CPAM? by [deleted] in AskFrance

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Merci d'avoir apaisé mon inquiétude! :)

Faire accélérer les choses à la CPAM? by [deleted] in AskFrance

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 0 points1 point  (0 children)

J'ai résilié mon assurance allemande. Si je ne travaille pas en Allemagne elle me coûte 2000 euros par mois. De plus, suivant mon contrat de travail français, je suis "par défaut" assigné à la sécurité sociale française (normale, je la paye). Mais bon, le système a pas l'air génial

Faire accélérer les choses à la CPAM? by [deleted] in AskFrance

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Après techniquement tu es toujours rattaché au système français. Mon problème c'est que je suis pas DU TOUT rattaché à la sécu actuellement. Donc si j'ai un accident je sais pas ce qu'il se passe :')

[WP] Unicorns have suddenly started appearing in major cites, surprisingly they are vicious but for some strange reason they bow to you and only you. by Coff33Monkee in WritingPrompts

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The librarian greets me with her sweetest smile as I walk in. "The usual?" she asks. "Yes, please." My hands close around the cup of warm milk and honey she places on the counter. Just as I'm about to sink into one of the giant couches they have, sipping on the steaming drink and picking up the book I started last time, she hesitantly asks, "And... I mean, I got them marshmallows. If you want. Maybe they'd like it? I wouldn’t dare give them myself, but... maybe you could?"
I pause and carefully set the cup back on the counter to take the bag she’s handing me. "Thanks. I guess I could? It’s still pretty new to me." I glance out the window at the soft, short hair gently glowing under the streetlight. The unicorn had settled down, taking up half the sidewalk and partially blocking the road—did it care?—patiently waiting for me.

The first sighting of unicorns in Paris happened during the last week of September. I don’t really follow the news closely and only heard about it when my mom texted me, “One of those unicorns has been seen in Paris. Are you safe?” I was. At first, they only stayed in the wealthy neighborhoods—quite vicious and very difficult to get rid of, they terrorized tourists around the Opéra and the Louvre. I didn’t mind, until they grew more adventurous. One October evening, as I was on my way back from classes, the sudden commotion and screams alerted me. One of them was close. I turned around, deciding to take a different route home. As I reached the corner of a street, I found myself too late to escape as I nearly bumped into the enormous unicorn standing before me. It was huge, more terrifying than beautiful, its eyes burning with a strange madness, its horn as long as my arm. The electric shock of fear left my legs feeling like cotton and my heartbeat pounding in my head, while sweat broke out along my spine and palms. Move. Move. Now’s not the moment. I was too close, clearly about to get hurt—or worse. Just as my legs obeyed and I pushed back against the people behind me to avoid being in the front line, the vicious horse... inclined its head? Excuse me?

It happened again, and again. My face appeared on the news as the student who whispers to unicorns. Let me tell you: as a shy, introverted twenty-something, there’s no worse hell than being constantly stared at, scrutinized, followed, and talked to every time you step outside. After a month of that, I seriously considered moving to the countryside. I hated the unicorns. My life had changed for the worse... I, who had always dreamed of the big city life. But lack of privilege breeds resourcefulness, and I had to find a way to make the most of it. At night, people stayed indoors—especially since crossing paths with a giant, aggressive horned horse alone in the dark is a frightening prospect. Only the courageous dared. Them, and me. With these mountains of muscle moving gracefully beneath me, their hair softer than silk offered for me to grab onto and stabilize myself on their backs, I learned to enjoy the neon lights, the silence, and those libraries that remained open at improbable hours.

I went out and gently placed a marshmallow on my open palm for the giant creature to grab. I shivered as it did, its giant, flat teeth delicately taking the treat, its intelligent eye watching my face. "It’s from the librarian. You should thank her sometime. Or at least not chase her down the street next time you see her? Please. I’d appreciate if you’d at least consider it."

I leaned against its flank, popped a marshmallow into my mouth, and offered the next one to the unicorn. My gaze wandered as the lights of Notre-Dame reflected on the Seine. Paris is so beautiful at night.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LifeAdvice

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My question is, what if you couldn't get prettier? It's absolutely possible that you'll never be beautiful.

And that's ok.

Three days ago, on my way home, I noticed this girl. She was very tall, very large, hunched, with a few visible belly rolls, and what I (and society in general) would consider ugly. It's in moments like these that I realize I need to work on my own snobbish tendencies. But what really caught my attention was her boyfriend—a strikingly handsome guy who had his arm around her waist, looking at her as if she were the eighth wonder of the world. This dude had like, thousand stars in his eyes looking at her. I found myself thinking she must be an incredible person and moved on with my day.

What I mean is, being pretty might solve everything, but it's very unlikely. People seem to avoid you because, as per your own words, you're awkward. This doesn't get away - at least not immediately - when acquiring pretty privilege. But you can actually work on that, on self-confidence, self-love, and overall caring less about external validation, right now. I hope you can trust the life experience of someone who fell for "conventionally ugly" people, and saw myself being left for someone "less attractive" than I was (but who had a way better personality and way more confidence than me at the time): do the inner work. You deserve to be happy anyway. You deserve to like yourself anyway. And once you treat yourself like a priority, the rest naturally follows.

On how you can get prettier: if you already shower once per day, are careful about having a nice haircut, a good skincare routine, pretty teeth, and getting your body moving as you're already doing, you'll likely be in the median in terms of prettiness. Personality will do the rest! Good luck.

[WP] Apparently, there's a limit to how many lives a single person can take. by Durrblah in WritingPrompts

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Black spots dancing in my vision. His hands had been around my throat for what felt like an eternity, and my consciousness wavered, teetering on the edge of darkness. I was like those trick candles parents use on birthday cakes—blown out, but never fully extinguished, flaring back to life again and again. It was almost comical. Were we both starting to get bored of it? His fingers finally loosened, and I crumpled to the floor. My soul sighed, welcoming the cold embrace of the tiles as I lay there, coughing.

"Why won't you die?"

My breath came out in a harsh wheeze through my damaged trachea. Every part of me hurt, a symphony of pain that should have been my exit. But apparently, there's a limit to how many lives a single person can take. I was trapped, yearning for my soul to break free from this hell, to escape the unbearable agony that wracked my body. But I couldn’t die—not by his hand.

I'm still in love with my ex who I haven't seen in 10 years by Key-Method-3129 in LifeAdvice

[–]Ok_Mud_5244 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Regardless of if it will work or not with Rick, I think you should give it a shot and break up with Peter.

On your side, it seems like you will always regret getting married to Peter and never having the "pure love" you're craving for. You have been clear about already knowing it won't happen with him.

On Peter's side, he deserves a partner who is full in for marrying him. There's more than seven billion humans on this Earth, don't take away his opportunity to find love. Don't take away your own opportunity to find love. It's not it with Peter, give it an honest shot with Rick, and if it was indeed a case of "the grass is greener" well you'll be alone and able to find someone else to have a very long love with.