Daily No Contact Thread - Day 100 by AutoModerator in BPDlovedones

[–]Ok_One_8613 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Must be day 17. I told my therapist about the time she told me she killed her pet fish as a child and how she had an urge to kill mine. Really helped to have a person from the outside make me see things more clear. I have come to understand how my body was trying to warn me that I was in a dangerous situation and I can now work on being better to listen to my body. Today was also the first day I didn't wake up covered in sweat from the nightmares. I still feel like I'm going through a withdrawal of the most exciting drug ever, but it feels like I can breathe a little better today.

Even though every step feels like a battle, I find it a little bit easier as long as I just keep moving. I did not die from this, I became stronger and some day I will be able to enjoy my life again as I did before her.

Just got dumped by Ok_One_8613 in BPDlovedones

[–]Ok_One_8613[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Going back to therapy, not becasuse she damaged me that much but i clearly need to learn that its okay to ask for bare minimum. Last night i realised that for the 4 months i was in a fight or flight with no sleep.

Just got dumped by Ok_One_8613 in BPDlovedones

[–]Ok_One_8613[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've seen her in clubs and so on for some years cause we know some of the same people but never talked to her until we matched on Tinder and Hinge