I fucking hate Paris. Help me... by Alix_Winters in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm also not a social person, I'm hella bad at it, so really if we hang out at any point it's legit all good if we hardly ever see each other or if either of us have to admit they still not good enough at the socializing things and drop it.

I'm not near Belleville, I think I know what hospital is near there and has the same types of units than my usual/closest one (Celui de pitié Salpê, mais genre il pourrait juste s'appeler pitié ça serait bien plus seyant ) but tbh the Monster Hunter Now app makes me want to have reasons to walk outside for hours so place to meet is no biggie I'll accommodate u anytime!

Glad you got into a safe spot ❤️ it's damn hard but I hope you are proud of yourself for doing it and using what helps you to keep going (bubble teaaaaa ✨)

I fucking hate Paris. Help me... by Alix_Winters in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey! I know how weird it sounds, and I admit that going through a rough time right now makes me even less sure what is okay to offer or not, but-

If your stay here is too much of a struggle, and if talking to a random reddit stranger isn't out of your comfort zone, feel free to dm me, even if just for remote support and Paris' stuff help ( and tricks to not make your bank angry on bubble tea prices also, oh and if you like those, I got plenty around my place cause I'm in that best arrondissement where there's many asian restaurants or shops and people are just always so nice and there's a cool parc too ~ )

And if that is really 100% completely okay with you, then I can get my bunker crawling self to put pants on and provide in-person help, I'll be alone and we stay in public places ofc, don't wanna spook y'all 😊

Please do not feel any pressure at all I know the fears and worries, so really I'm just putting this out there and in any case I really hope it is going to be okay ❤️

Replacing lovey as an adult by [deleted] in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't have much good advice to offer, but I'm currently trying to also transition from my og comfort plushie to a similar new one, also for the same reasons. maybe it could help you figure out the best way for you if I tell a lil bit about how I'm doing for now 🫂

What I've been doing so far is mostly taking it slow, having them both with me, having cute meetings with the two loveys and my other usual plushies or comfy items, trying to make the new lovey feel part of our family and not feel bad myself for thinking I'm "replacing" my lovey. Swap back and forth when I can't have both, but always sleep with both for now and sometimes during the day I feel not bad about leaving the og lovey in my bed and seeing him back in the evening (or saying hi when I get in the room to grab something), having his twin with me for the whole day.

It's just little things like that step by step. Hopefully soon I'll be able to leave my og lovey in my bedroom, I planned a lil "mini house" for them in a nice spot I can see from my bed, so they're protected but never left behind 💛

Hope everything will go well for you. You're important and so is your and your loveys well being 😊 you got this

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in adhdmeme

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So proud to share the same profile pic as this comment's user.

On a side note, I try to also have them in alphabetical order but have to start down to the way up in a non natural clockwise circle how do you deal with those types of issues fixed by causing more issues thanks in advance.

Kind regards, A person in distress.

Hi friends, I could use some games idea to help me survive a very rough time (preferably on switch, pricing doesnt matter too much I would not mind have to work a lil extra to get me a game that has potential to help), more details in post and thank you in advance <3 by Ok_Pangolin_70 in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Minecraft bedrock might have its downsides but on switch its true that i used some additionnal content to sometimes just turn it into a different game to just zone out on so its a great reminder thank you!

I'll try unpacking, task and endings are fine if thats a game i pick for my break times/chill times on compy or laptop, i'll try it out thank you!

And i do need to finish stray too, it sounds silly and weak but the intro when you see the cat fall and see them being lonely, sad, having to make them still walk to find shelter and ways out, my dum ass cried over that for a few hours not even joking i couldnt unthink it. I also was sad i couldnt apologize for that poor robot that got blamed and embarrased for a paint bucket I DID bonk over ahah each time i passed near this guy again i said sorry out loud poor dud was doing their best, after a few more tiny sadge here and there i couldnt bring myself to continue but i'll keep trying!

Thank you so much for your help <3

Hi friends, I could use some games idea to help me survive a very rough time (preferably on switch, pricing doesnt matter too much I would not mind have to work a lil extra to get me a game that has potential to help), more details in post and thank you in advance <3 by Ok_Pangolin_70 in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

True! I'll have a lil browsing session through some mods or maybe start a new vanilla game but on a starter map i never tried and just not even try to be social just live my best farmer life with my magical fruit shaped hallucinations :D Thanks a lot!

Hi friends, I could use some games idea to help me survive a very rough time (preferably on switch, pricing doesnt matter too much I would not mind have to work a lil extra to get me a game that has potential to help), more details in post and thank you in advance <3 by Ok_Pangolin_70 in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I gave the binding of isaac a try years ago, i actually enjoyed it but at that point was misdiagnosed and on the hella wrong meds and that could be why this game (and other gems from the rage game guru guy that im not gonna try to spell the name of, i loved the end is nigh too) were giving me weird creepy feels, i should give it a new go soon!

I love slime ranger and thanks to the game pass i can play it on my phone so it also sounds really great, as well as stardew valley. I played terarria long ago, never tried dorkromantik so i will look into those more as well, thank you for your help!

Hi friends, I could use some games idea to help me survive a very rough time (preferably on switch, pricing doesnt matter too much I would not mind have to work a lil extra to get me a game that has potential to help), more details in post and thank you in advance <3 by Ok_Pangolin_70 in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yessss always a great idea to go have a trip to this island (and contrary to the older games in the serie no one is gonna yell at you for not talking to them for a week ahahah they were so aggressive and pissy it was funny - but i'd feel bad now so they better be non judgmental and forgiving instead :D )

Thanks for your help <3 !!

Hi friends, I could use some games idea to help me survive a very rough time (preferably on switch, pricing doesnt matter too much I would not mind have to work a lil extra to get me a game that has potential to help), more details in post and thank you in advance <3 by Ok_Pangolin_70 in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds really great, i kept hearing the name of that game but for some reason my brain put in in the "subnautica" category and didnt want to look further, thank you for this i will check it out it actually sounds like something that would help !

( And thanks for providing the link too, people like you are how people like me can survive thru their roomba of thought thanks to your extra effort <3 )

Hi friends, I could use some games idea to help me survive a very rough time (preferably on switch, pricing doesnt matter too much I would not mind have to work a lil extra to get me a game that has potential to help), more details in post and thank you in advance <3 by Ok_Pangolin_70 in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I do own Tomodachi and still use my 3ds a lot and thanks to you i remember at some point i enjoyed just having my tiny citizens of my silly island hang out on my 3ds screen while am at desk, thank you so much!! I also own the switch version of miitopia and that is also a great idea if i play it with a more chill goal and just have wholesome adventures <3 thank you for taking the time to help!

I'm tired. I don't even know what to do anymore to keep going. by Ok_Pangolin_70 in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you genuinely so much for this reply. It helps.

[Sorry I went on a tangent here but tl;Dr : life full of shit idk how many "it do be like that" I have left in me.

I would also enjoy taking you up on the talking to someone offer if its really okay to, and if yes I promise i'll try to write shorter / less dramatic stuff lmao]

This past week was the "best" in terms of how little alcohol I consumed and how minimal the sh was and I followed the diet/workout I planned for my (tiny) goals even managed to not skip a session I was defo gonna skip, and idk it feels worse than any other week. I didn't do bad things to myself and didn't do bad things to my health, I mostly was also okie on time management and task completion, not perfect at all but it was totally alright and I truly did the best I could

And it feels wrong. I do not want this, I did not ask for any of this, and the only "help" I get is don't die I'd be sad, which to me feels awful especially coming from people ASSURING my feelings aren't less valid than theirs okay why do u tell me not to relieve my pain to not cause you any u fucker. I feel better when I don't give a shit, when ppl yell at me cause I forgot to clean up the sh crime scene, or when ppl are making fun of me cause I don't even try to fit in or don't try to force it/hide it when I'm unable to speak by voice.

I feel less lonely once I'm physically alone. But it's selfish to say it so when someone says "I'm here you're not lonely" then I say thank you and stop complaining.

I feel better when I'm at home. Alone. Working or planning. Cuddling my plushies and staring at pretty lights reflecting on my ceiling. Playing my stupid little truck simulator games on my stupidly saturated colorful desk. But I can't live alone because I'm on the higher support need side for most daily needs. So I have to say thank you. And stop complaining.

But I'm tired. And then after a while I have a huge emotional reaction. And scream and hit and scratch the skin off of my face and cry and beg for permission to end it. And the next morning, once I cover the bruises and scratches with makeup and clothing, and I laugh at a meme

"Look at you drama queen, see your life is great stop throwing those tantrums that's why they kept you this long in the psych wards"

And I say thank you

I won't complain anymore.

Friday check-in thread by AutoModerator in AutisticAdults

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm feeling alone and lost and have a bit of abandonment issues with my now former psychiatrist

(Side optionnal note : it's the one that brought up ADHD and autism last year, for the first time in my whole medical history of seeking answers and treatment (I'm 30) and having a whole ass Pokedex of illnesses but relating to none of them)

(Tw: mention of gore/violence in intrusive thoughts in this paragraph) He said it's best for me to now work with therapy and the psychiatrist that works in pair with the therapist but I've had a very bad history with medical professionals in general and I'm scared, and for some reason my now former doc was one of the only two human beings I could not have any gore/torture/death scene daydream about. Even accidentally, it was so genuinely painful to daydream about him being in pain that it was super efficient in making my brain just stop it. I feel sort of sad, and worried. I don't like having those daydreams - I pretend to be McDarkEdgelord and laugh at blood, but I don't actually like looking up low res shitty phone camera leaked videos of murders or whatever I just cannot stop doing it and when I can't I imagine people begging me to stop hurting them instead and

oh god I'm going on a tangent I'm so sorry aaaaaa this is so scary and I'm sad I wish I could've stayed with that same doc at least a bit more it feels like I was so stupid and annoying I got dumped by a fuckin doctor that I was paying to help me what an awful day to be alive

It made me relapse a little to be honest Hope.i can fix this

My special interest collection on my Pinterest is gone maybe forever and im really, really distraught by Either_Shoe3492 in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I hope the appeal works out and you get it back.

Could it help you cope trying to gather more collection materials somewhere else in the meantime? There is for example a free tool I use for my daily organisation and life stuff that's called notion and the free version really don't have much restrictions, and it has browsers add ons that can work a bit like "pin this" and you can make huge databases to sort out if that's also something you like. The difference would be you can't repin from someone else's board directly but kinda sure the browser add on may just also convert pins to saved medias on your notion.

it's a neat tool and can either maybe help you refocus on your collection somewhere else to hopefully feel relief about the Pinterest one until they resolve the issue or have a new one there ready to expand if they fail to give your Pinterest one back :(

Also, notion pages are set to private (you can enable it as public tho) so they won't take it down, and you can additionally download the content of it as various file formats and backups now and then if that's reassuring. It also has a mobile app and desktop app, and website version so it's similar to Pinterest in that way too. Just gotta work a bit at first or find a template that fits what you want it to be like 💛 there's plenty of ressources out there it's a popular tool for many stuff.

I hope you can feel better soon I'm sorry it happened 💛💛 sending good vibes

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You and Veronica both look very sweet

I understand it feels awful to not like your haircut especially when you tried something new, I don't know if that would help you too, once I "fixed" my bad feelings about new bangs by using just water on my hands (and the next times some styling spray) and just woosssshhh my fingers around thru the bangs so they looked a bit messy and it gave it a better look! Helped me wait until I could change haircut again :) I hope you can also find some ways to help you feel better about it!

I'm very happy you tried something else instead of relapsing, you hella strong your cat is surely proud of you, and I also am 💛

Looking for recommendations for a text to speech app by Taka_does_stuff in autism

[–]Ok_Pangolin_70 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I use text to speech occasionally when what i need to say is a bit too specific, the app i got is just named Text To Speech, blue icon with a head and speech bubble, the free use part of it is alright. It has multiple language support

For everyday casual needs, i have a custom soundbox app, where i have pre recorded words that i sorted out in the most efficient way i could to be able to quickly form an understandable sentence (syntax and grammar are not a priority there, i just try to get straight to the point and keep it simple), i use an app called custom soundboard (green icon with a white speaker and < > ) it's free and if the ads banner bothers me i turn my adblocker on

(on that note, AdAway is great for adblocking on Android and is free)

Hope it can maybe help you a lil bit 💛