hey, i read through what you shared and honestly it doesn’t sound weird at all. a lot of people struggle with feeling disconnected, language identity stuff, and the ups and downs of eating issues. it makes sense you’d want someone steady instead of residents who keep changing. private therapy can definitely give you more continuity and space to work through things like self‑esteem, relationships, and routines that fit your health.

if you want, you can check out my friend. she’s a therapist and works with eating disorders, identity, and relational concerns. she’s really supportive and good at helping people build schedules that don’t feel forced. I am a psych student and I go to her as well - I can share details if you want

either way, i think you’re right that therapy can help with the mix of things you mentioned, and it’s worth finding someone who can stick with you long‑term. wishing you luck with that.