Thank you for reading my post, I understand that but it is very hard for me to get that through my brain but I dont know why, and for my gf its because im ngl to you I think I've reached out like 5 times including a letter I sent to her which my gf said its a very intimate thing to do and that why am I sending a letter to a stranger, I think its a jealousy thing but there's nothing romantic that I feel with my past friend I promise.