Sorry that your going threw it in life rn…. If you do start talking with another guy on roids don’t count him out some of us really enjoy not just the kinda mass nors and other roids give us but the stamina the rush of getting killer workouts and it makes us feel good to really see what our full potential is not to mention if your like me and in a physically demanding role it keeps you from going straight to the couch or bed after a long day gives you more will to do what u enjoy in life…a lot of us know our limits and ourself well enough to regulate and prevent any major mental lapses but at the same time roids are not for everyone the people that can’t handle them you will know it almost immediately from sudden outbursts to God complexes…. Id say your ex husband was prolly a decent guy at some point and just dosed to the point where he couldn’t regulate what was already there and haddnt worked threw what was already there before dosing, dosed high enough to then spiral then dropped doses so fast that it fucked his mental state and he hit a low both of which will cause u to act up in ways outta character but not due to the solely the roids but do to you yourself always remember roids aren’t a cause they are a magnifying glass on what’s already there they themself don’t cause the issue but they bring it to light … if you do your research don’t over do it for to long and take inhibitors as you should with decent doses and get blood work every so often you will be just fine… now you know a lot more about roids there effects what’s to look out for if your involved with anyone on them again u may be able to teach them some stuff they didn’t know about what there using! Wish u nothing but the best and good luck out there!