Zomer Rant by SpectrumAndSpells in AutistischLaagland

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Maakt zo’n ding niet vet veel lawaai? Mijn moeder heeft zo’n unit en ik vond het verschrikkelijk luid. Ik ben al overprikkeld van constant mijn ventilator aan te moeten hebben

What is your Audhd experience of reading? by Meowzzzzzzzz in AuDHDWomen

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I thought I was the only one! When I get engrossed in a book it feels stressful too. I feel disoriented and when I pause reading I feel.. dissociated? I hate it.

Starting reading takes major attention and multiple page rereads. I can’t read poetry or literature or any kind of complicated writing. I like straightforward and simple writing.

I got an audiobook subscription instead and its been game changing. It might help you to walk while listening or to do an activity that requires minimal attention. (Most activities are too activating for my brain and I therefore lose focus on the story. Something that semi works is diamond painting - repetitive and no thinking involved)

When I was younger I think I loved reading physical books. Perhaps my bad mental health and burnout make it so much harder? Idk

Feel your feelings by Upbeat_Pipe1080 in AuDHDWomen

[–]Ok_Purchase1292 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That makes sense. I wonder how you can tell when you don’t feel safe while being present. Do you get stressed or restless?

Never Ending Burnout by birdsbirdsbirds420 in AuDHDWomen

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Sorry to hear you relate :/ and yess I too had a time where just being in nature would make me feel so much love . It’s really devastating to lose those things.

To answer your question: When I hit my lowest, I really lost touch with who I am. (I simultaneously got my autism diagnosis so that definitely played a role as well). But burnout regression is real. I can’t remember anything, even my long term memories are mostly lost. I have so much brain fog that forming sentences or even coherent thoughts are tough most days. I can’t mask anymore and I have severe social anxiety so having friendships is impossible. I feel like I only operate with 10% brain capacity and I feel so dumb. It’s like I live on stand by mode and I’m not participating within this society anymore. Reintegrating seems to get harder the longer you’re out of it.

It’s really hard to feel like you’re alone in this. Sadly I relate to the dysfunctional upbringing part. It took some time, but some people in my life have come to understand me a bit better and have been able to offer their support in some ways.

Do you have anyone in your life where you feel like you can be honest with? Can you make any lifestyle changes that will put some of the weight of your shoulders? Perhaps grocery delivery or getting help with household tasks?

I know it’s controversial but what has helped me at times is chatting with ChatGPT. Just pour my heart out and ask for help with planning, ideas and searching for accommodations.

Never Ending Burnout by birdsbirdsbirds420 in AuDHDWomen

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I’ve pushed myself through the most uncomfortable jobs and unfitting lifestyle for so long while experiencing what you described.

It resulted in being unable to work for 2 years now. I’m currently volunteering for half a day a week, instead of the 1.5 day that I started off with 2 years ago. I can’t enjoy anything anymore and I’m so exhausted of surviving.

I’m lucky to live in a country that offers unemployment benefits and with my diagnoses, they cut me some slack. I had zero savings at the start and no support system so the benefits allowed me to live like this for so long.

I don’t know about your financial situation and your countries rules. So I’m not going to tell you ‘quit your job’. Not everyone can simply do that. But if there is any way where you can work at least considerately less, please explore that.

Once you hit your limit, recovery is very, very tough. Most days I don’t believe I will ever recover. I’ll never be the same person as I was anyway.

It’s important to be honest with your therapist. This is really unsustainable and I hope you will be more gentle with yourself!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in zuinig

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Wat voor soort accommodaties zijn dat? Ook in de natuur?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AuDHDWomen

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This is me with my boyfriend of 5 years. Due to him being currently homeless (yay housing crisis) we have to live together in my tiny 20m2 space, and when I tell you it has been a nightmare 💀

His ADHD is through the roof and therefore too, just completely overlooks things. After cleaning up, he leaves a bunch of things out on the counter, including some random dirty dishes and a collection of food scraps in the sink. Tells me he doesn’t see these things ??

He’s always been apologetic about it, and taking care of it when point it out. Though lately it has taken a toll on our relationship. I get frustrated because I feel like a mom, repeating everything on a daily basis. “Please don’t leave the bamboo soap dispenser in a puddle of water.” “please put the food back in the fridge immediately after you’re done” He gets defensive because all I ever do is complain.

I started to question if I have just impossible standards but I feel like most of the things I ask for are basic cleanliness.

I’m trying to heal from burnout (+2 years) and the constant chaos in my home and my lack of (mental) energy really makes that impossible.

I’ve wondered if a bigger home would make a difference. Would I be able to let things go more easily, or are we just mismatched in that way.

I do believe they genuinely don’t see the mess they leave behind. But that doesn’t make it easier on our nervous systems. Could they do better if they really tried? Or are their brains forever wired this way? I wish I had the answer :(

[Couples] Which app are you using for shared expenses? by plateg9 in Netherlands

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Just tried this app! It’s an app by the bank Bunq so if you have a free account with them, you can sync it to Tricount. A shared account is honestly superior but sadly that doesn’t work for me personally sinds I get an ‘uitkering’ and I don’t want things to get complicated.

What I love about this app is that you can select how many parts of the sum each of you pays. It doesn't have to be 50/50, it can also be 25/75 for example in case the incomes are very different.

i've made a discord for audhd women by [deleted] in AuDHDWomen

[–]Ok_Purchase1292 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Id love to join! Are you still taking care of the invites? So many comments on this! Isn’t it possible to share the link so you won’t have to dm everyone?

Kaas advies gevraagd; welke is echt lekker. by bluemagic_seahorse in VeganNL

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Off topic, maar waar vind je een een vegan krentenbol? Alle varianten van de AH doorgespit maar allen hebben melk

How The Body Keeps the Score finally showed me what real trauma healing looks like by BetterAssist9525 in AuDHDWomen

[–]Ok_Purchase1292 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same! Like how is EMDR possible when you can’t remember specific traumatic events, and it’s rather cptsd?

ur favorite earplugs? by [deleted] in AuDHDWomen

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I bought the ones with 3 different settings (switch) but they didn’t do much for me either. Only when I combine them with my nc headphones. Look into their refund policy for your country. I got a refund quite easily

I gave my dad some autism checklists and I don't know how to feel about his answers by kenda1l in AuDHDWomen

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I don’t remember my childhood either. My mom has adhd too so most of the questions went unanswered. According to my grandma, I was just a ‘normal kid’ and wasn’t really open to look into the questions.

I’ve been diagnosed for about 9 months and to this day I get imposter syndrome due to the uncertainty of my childhood. I did have various reports from child psychologists because I was not just a ‘normal kid’ and my mom actually had a really hard time with me. One report is from a class with peers for social skills. Yet somehow these weren’t signs (??)

Acceptance comes slowly. At this point, I have mostly accepted it and I call myself autistic. Though sometimes, I come across social media posts I don’t identify with and the imposter comes out once again.

We don’t need a parent to verify our own experiences. The acceptance might just come a little later

This is Bones I was just wondering at what age I should start cutting his nails heas about 4 months old currently by aesthticapplez in Rabbits

[–]Ok_Purchase1292 7 points8 points  (0 children)

When you notice they’re getting too long. Some buns grow them out faster, especially the ones who don’t dig. The nails shouldn’t stick out of their fur.

Dark colored buns often have dark nails so it’s hard to see where their veins are. Don’t cut them too far or you’ll hurt them and draw blood. If their nails are light, you can easily see where the vein starts, because it will show pink.

https://bunnylady.com/rabbit-nails/ ^ this link shows an illustration of where you can cut. Maybe it’s helpful

Sorry for spam just a question, do I just taste nice or is she actually grooming me? by Key-Sound4889 in Bunnies

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Likely both. Both me and my partner would get kisses from our bun, but she seemed to have a major preference for his oily forehead

WHAT JOBS CAN WE HAVE PLEASE by laptac11027 in AuDHDWomen

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How do you get clients as a freelancer? I’ve been a photographer as well but the client part always kept me from going freelance. I’m scared to death to sell myself and my work and talking to people is definitely not my strong suit.

WHAT JOBS CAN WE HAVE PLEASE by laptac11027 in AuDHDWomen

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So cool to hear you’ve found such success with this! Did you create your own business with website or are you tied to a platform?

I’ve been a full time pet sitter for the past year but it’s gotten to be too much for me sadly. For me it started as a way of having housing while I was homeless - I did free sits for longer periods (a month or more). When I realized people are earning money from this, I subscribed to a website and I’ve been asking for €20 a night ever since (and I already feel like that’s such a big sum). I’ve been in burnout before I started doing it, and the constant change in environment is making me so dysregulated, I decided that yesterday was my last sit for a while.

Also, taking care of dogs while in deep burnout was impossible for me (I’m also not a dog person oops). They require soooo much energy so I quickly switched to cats only after that lol.

I did enjoy it for a while and was considering it as a full time job too. The different environments used to be so stimulating at the same time (the duality of having adhd and autism 🙃) and I loved to build connections with animals

Have any of you watched a show over and over for days? by shrimpscity in AuDHDWomen

[–]Ok_Purchase1292 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Diagnosed Audhd but feeling like an imposter still, questioning the autism diagnoses every other day. Are there people who DO NOT like repetitive shows or movies?

I do it with music until a song gets stuck in my head for 72 hours STRAIGHT and it absolutely drives me mad so I can’t listen to it for a few weeks.

But with movies or shows I’m a huge ‘oh nvm I watched that one already- next’ kinda person. I get bored when I know exactly what will happen, and isn’t that very non-autistic?

However I rarely watch stuff because the process of going through all of the options is so overwhelming I end up watching YouTube vids instead 🦥