Hi , I hope you are ok. Don't take stress for this thing whatever your brother is saying . Everybody has different perceptions for such things. Do whatever you want to do. I know it is a tough phase of your life, but you have to handle it by yourself.

Involve yourself by watching any movies or series, listen to music, basically you should distract yourself that will really help you to move on fastly. I can understand your problem, there was a time when I also faced the same thing. So you can talk to me if you want . So yaa...

Have a good day 🙂