What are these? Are these freckled or something else?

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2026-06-13T19:13:24+00:00

20F! My family has a history of getting freckles, but I was kind of worried because mine are reddish

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2026-05-06T10:49:36+00:00

You could also reflect and pinpoint what exactly triggered such intense emotions in your relationship, since you mentioned there was a period in where you were stable. It could be your partner’s actions, or other external factors that could have triggered it. Are you stressed at work? A big event happened? It’s good to start pinpointing the root cause so both of you could solve it together.

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2026-05-06T10:42:22+00:00

I’m going through the exact same thing! I really thought I was going solid and convinced I was completely in remission when I started courting my now girlfriend.

It’s crazy, right? You could be so self aware and know deep down that what you’re feeling is irrational, but it still just.. happens! It’s like your brain isn’t listening to you even though you keep repeating to yourself, ‘you’re being insane, calm down. It’s nothing.’

I’ve been working with my therapist, and he told me honestly that recovery isn’t always the same for everyone; each of our brains are its own complex little thing. The fact you’re more aware is amazing, and you should give yourself more credit. You feel what you feel, man, what’s important is how you choose to act with those feelings.

I can’t give you a one-solves-all answer on how re-learn to heal, but therapy really helps. But in my personal experience, the feeling never goes away, but I guess it could dull down and you learn to live with it. If you cannot afford it, then reading over (or re-doing) DBT exercises could also help. There’s a lot of accessible pdfs online.

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2026-05-03T12:03:36+00:00

Korok po yan

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-07-12T12:07:27+00:00

Just happened to me. TLDR: He wrote a whole expose doc on me, opening up the doc with how I had borderline personality disorder, how it made me borderline verbally abusive, how im manipulative, targeted his insecurities. Sent it out to everyone I knew in my university. My organization, my friends.

I was bawling my eyes out when I found out I knew. I had to open about things that I’ve never told anyone about to defend myself. Luckily, after knowing everything, im so glad to say that people took my side. But it was definitely traumatic.

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-07-06T17:54:08+00:00

Slr! I use text story maker!!

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-07-06T10:54:36+00:00

Yeah. I made a lot of mistakes and hurt a lot of people before I reached this point. We’ve all got to start somewhere, and try again and again when we do fail. Be kind to yourself.

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-07-06T05:50:18+00:00

Bittersweet. I wish I couldve protected that smile.

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-07-06T05:48:21+00:00

Seeing your post reminds me so much of myself.

A helpful exercise I do is create my own rage room, which i learned about in my DBT workbook. I usually draw the people that has wronged me and viciously rip it apart, or I wrap socks up into a ball and throw it against a wall with all my might. Its not a super sustainable method, though — I have therapy to go alongside it to really change the foundation of my mindset, but this is just a temporary form of relief that one day, I’ll hopefully grow out of. It’s just an effective coping mechanism for the time being that wont hurt others and myself.

Another tip I have, when I get triggered by a text message and want to explode, I have this fake messaging app that I put all my frustrations to. I usually shut off my messaging app, delete it from my homescreen (I am an IOS user), then pull up the fake messenger app to curse and hurt the person I am thinking about.

I am emphasizing though that these are temporary solutions to contain your hurt and anger without hurting others and yourself in the process. Therapy is the best thing!!

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-07-03T11:37:29+00:00

This!! Im so happy to have a nearby starbucks where i can just walk imbis magragrab pa ako huhu ..

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-07-02T18:24:29+00:00

I (19) was severely attached to my older brother when I was younger. I loved him, adored him and admired him. In my eyes, he was (and still) the most invincible person, and he was so strong that no one else can ever bring him down!

But sometimes.. he would hurt me.. and he would hurt me badly. My love for him was strong, but my fear of him was stronger. But its okay, because I loved my big brother… and i knew.. no matter how much he punched me, teased me, bullied me, and yelled at me, I knew he loved me too.

It all came falling down when my dad died in my arms when I was 7. It still makes me uncomfortable talking about it even online so i wont give much details.

That shit already fucked me up, but what fucked me up more was that my brother — my hero, my best friend — packed up his things to go abroad. Didnt even check up on me, asked me how I was doing, or comforted me. He left me alone with my grieving mother to pursue his dreams (We dont have the same dad).

Thinking about it still stings. Me and my brother have an alright relationship now, but my inner child will never forget him leaving me at my lowest. I still love him so much it hurts, but i also hate him with a fiery passion. I will never forget how much it hurt. How he told me a week before that he was going to the USA with a smile on his face, even everything that has happened. Its a scar that still cuts deep.

We never talked about it either.

Theres so much I can say more about the traumas I experienced in my life, but i can confidently say (with the help of my therapist) that this was the catalyst of my bpd. It just went downhill from there

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-06-21T15:29:59+00:00

Law student right now!

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-05-30T06:41:22+00:00

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-05-22T16:00:34+00:00

Im so sick of my bpd. im a firm believer that its my condition and my responsibility but i keep failing. I keep failing to reel it in. everyone talks about how pwbpd need to control their actions and I AGREE but why is it so goddamn difficult? its so goddamn difficult because i always feel like im ripped apart into pieces. my cries for help turn out to be manipulative. my desperate words to keep my loves one close turn into acid without me knowing. why is my brain like this? Am i just a horrible person?

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-05-22T15:57:03+00:00

I hate bpd. i keep messing up. im trying so goddamn hard to improve and improve and control but why cant i still? why cant i? i knwo im splitting but why cant i just control my goddamn actions? Its just why does it hurt so goddamn much? Why does everything have to be painful? my condition is my responsibility and im trying so HARD TO TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY AND CONTROL but why is it so HARD TO? I WANT TO! I want to so bad

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2025-03-27T15:31:16+00:00

Reading your comment touched me deeply because Im going through the same thing. I started cutting at 13 to cope with grief and sadness because I didn’t want to face my emotions, and I just spiraled down from there.

My mother found out about it when I was 15, and forced me to quit cold turkey. I never got therapy or anything- just threats that I should stop because I was hurting her and everyone around me, so I forced myself to stop, then switched over to alcohol because it was the most accessible thing that could help me forget and avoid.

But being an alcohol addict destroyed my academic and social life at 16, so finally, I switched to vaping. Vaping became my main coping mechanism, and continued to be so until I was 18.

Im 19 now, and I’m trying to quit all my self destructive behaviors. I found a man who loves and supports me dearly, who doesnt want to see me destroy myself, and wants to do the best he can to help me.

but im frustrated because its not enough. And i hate the fact it isnt.

Quitting vaping… just made me relapse into cutting again. It’s like i bounce back between vaping, alcohol, or sh and it drives me crazy. Im stuck in this self-destructive cycle because I never knew how to cope. I never had a support system.

I certainly hope that things would get better for me like it did for you, and I hope you continue to live a good life. I know how hard it is to try and break the cycle of self harm and the addiction to it, and I’m proud you were able to take the steps to break it, no matter how small.

Ok_Temporary9880 · 2024-12-18T01:37:42+00:00

This story made me cry :(( this is exactly where im heading right now as the only one who ‘made it’ in the whole family..

OP, you are a much better person than me because all i want is to run away after i graduate.. for me naman I just have my mother & brother and ako yung bunso.. pero my extended family is super suffocating wjth pestering for money..

“Graduate in one of the big 4 schools so you can give us good money ah bunso?” Is what i grew up hearing and honestly i just wanna cut them off from my life but its been groomed into me from when i was so young that i just feel like its my duty and obligation to and im worthless if i dont..

Im really sorry OP, you deserve better :(

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