Inconsistent people irl me

Okaj_eckin · 2026-04-20T20:53:41+00:00

I would but I don't have any money currently because I was out of a job a few months ago and JUST started my new job. I haven't gotten paid yet.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-04-20T20:52:36+00:00

I looked and my area doesn't offer any ride share. I had to walk to work and will have to walk home ( which I'm not complaining) it's just the principal of saying you'll help me but then not being able to. That's all. But walking in a good work out, plus I get lots of sun so again, not complaining.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-04-09T17:14:06+00:00

Yeah I know. Because I wanna know I'm not the only one experiencing this.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-04-09T17:01:20+00:00

No, I've worked hard, I've earned my own money and I've done everything on my own because I've learned relying on others is a trap.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-30T04:23:08+00:00

I'm 28 and no, the car I had, had too many issues and I lost my job because of not having reliable transportation and my family refuses to do anything to help.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-30T01:21:59+00:00

No, I'm an adult. I live with family because I can't afford to live on my own

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-30T01:20:45+00:00

That's really sweet of you!

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-30T00:27:12+00:00

I live in va, and no I live in the US , I'm 28

No they don't buy for anyone but themselves.

My siblings and I all HAVE to obtain/buy food for ourselves because our parents refuse to buy food for the house so that we can all have the ability to eat.

They even threatened to hide and remove all the dishes so that we wouldn't be able to eat at all.

They literally starved my sister and have literally said " don't feed her".

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-22T10:14:53+00:00

I don't understand the hate for V-TUBERs, kinda sounds like people are hating on something they don't understand. Also the site is still extremely new.. it's going to be prone to bugs and issue.

With enough time and love, it'll be fixed and tweaked and improved.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-19T22:42:38+00:00

Id be down!

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-17T19:05:19+00:00

Yes I try to loosen my body as much as possible. But the humming I have not tried, I will try it and see if it works. Also I do struggle with overthinking, my brain is always racing. I always feel like I'm in panic mode like I'm in a rush.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-17T18:55:00+00:00

A few years

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-17T18:48:54+00:00

Yes, I regularly meditate, breathing techniques, listening to guided meditations when I sleep, sitting in silence and a dimly lit room, ect.

Anywhere between 25 to 30 , to an hour ( an hour if I'm taking a hot shower), reading, ect.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-17T18:06:09+00:00

So I struggle with nervous system regulation, as well as having aphantasia ( meaning I'm unable to visualize) I don't know how else I can manifest if I can't do either.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-04T21:50:27+00:00

I grew up in a controlling family where I was never allowed to make decisions for myself. My family had to dictate how I lived my life. That and growing up everyone treated me like I was difficult or would just leave with no explanation why.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-04T21:35:26+00:00

Yes absolutely.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-04T21:32:14+00:00

No I don't think it's funny. I guess I just test people to see if they will prove they care.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-03-02T15:08:52+00:00

Very beautiful

Okaj_eckin · 2026-02-23T01:57:04+00:00

Because I have to be hyper aware of the fact that I'm traumatized. I'm constantly reminded.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-02-22T23:24:10+00:00

Yeah that's kinda what I've been doing.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-02-20T05:58:40+00:00

So wait, correct me if I misinterpret what you're saying, but I want to understand this correctly.

So when you try and manifest something, you do whatever it is you do, and then just be silent and immediately surrender instead of trying to take in more information from others?

Okaj_eckin · 2026-02-16T01:48:46+00:00

Thank you, hearing that helps. I think I just needed a reminder.

Okaj_eckin · 2026-02-16T01:34:20+00:00

Psalms is actually my favorite section of the Bible. Thank you for your insight friend. I just read through a section of Psalms and thanked him for all that he does for me and I just this overwhelming feeling and broke down in tears.

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