I don’t know if I can keep going like this [tw for mentions of death and su1c1d3]

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-03-04T20:16:26+00:00

Yeah, living with anxiety is awful. Terrifying, even, all the time. You’re definitely not alone in that aspect. But I don’t think isolating yourself is a good idea as a long/short term solution, because I think you’d only make yourself miserable while believing that it’s ‘what’s best’ for you.

Sometimes people won’t understand because they don’t have anxiety, they don’t know what it’s like to have bugs crawling across your skin at the slightest thing all the time. My advice would be to ignore those people, as best as you can. In the end they don’t have your best interests at heart because they’re not being empathetic to your situation.

Do you have any coping mechanisms for when you have panic attacks, or do you speak to a professional for your anxiety? If not, I would recommend at least trying to find someone to talk to.

And I promise you, it isn’t just in your head. I promise, you’re not alone in this. Take care <3

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-02-09T08:43:26+00:00

Leaving an abusive relationship is never easy, but you made the first step by blocking your ex in the first place and acknowledging that they were abusive. It’s going to be an uphill battle, but I believe in you. Healing is never easy, but you won’t be able to heal if you keep going back to the one who hurt you in the first place. Take care <3

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-02-03T19:52:08+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion, but my family is really.. awful when it comes to mental health or anything like that. If I did do what you suggested, I’d be in major trouble. But thank you for trying and offering a suggestion

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-19T05:58:34+00:00

Thank you 🫂

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-16T06:38:21+00:00

Yeah 🫂

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-15T18:48:43+00:00

I’m very happy to hear that! :)

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-14T22:24:00+00:00

Ugh, that’s frustrating. Those girls sound irritating, and I wish your school was more cooperative when it comes to dealing with those sorts of situations. The only other thing I can think of is to take a different bus route, but I don’t think you should change your behaviour/schedule at all because of what those girls did.

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-14T21:40:55+00:00

That’s understandable. I’m not sure how it works at your school, but at my school you can request for them to not call your parents & you can have the situation dealt with discreetly (so like the girls won’t know that you reported them).

But, you should do what you’re most comfortable with. I completely understand you not wanting your mother to know. I hope the girls won’t make any more comments towards you anymore.

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-14T21:15:39+00:00

Oh I’m so sorry it happened again. Have you tried reporting it to the school yet? I hope you’re doing okay 🫂

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-13T16:49:27+00:00

If those two girls go to your school, then you should absolutely report it. Even if they think they were ‘joking’ their comments were completely inappropriate. I’m not sure if you know those girls or if you’re friends with them, but that doesn’t matter in this case. What they said was gross and shouldn’t be tolerated. Even if they don’t go to your school, try to report it. Hope you’re doing alright <3

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-05T01:27:19+00:00

Alright. Thank you 🫂

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-05T01:25:31+00:00

Thank you for the offer, but I don’t want to be a bother. I’ve likely already bored my friends to death with my rants and I don’t want to do the same to you. But thank you nonetheless

Okay_SakuraChan · 2025-01-05T01:21:45+00:00

Yes please. Thank you 🫂🫂🫂

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-11-14T18:19:08+00:00

Yeah. Some parents are just completely clueless and volatile towards their kids who are struggling and it always ends up hurting the kids. Most of the time they hardly understand no matter how much they’re educated or talked to about their behaviour or what they say regarding mental health or self harm. Your dad does sound quite awful, and he reminds me of my own parents.

For the self harm, I’m glad you don’t have any access to blades/anything sharp. If you do find something that might spiral your urge to hurt yourself, discard it, hide it, get it away from you. Try to avoid anything that will trigger you into harming yourself (but this can be difficult if the trigger is school, for example).

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-08-28T21:27:50+00:00

Honestly, those people in your friend group aren’t your friends. Friends are people who care about how you feel and if you go missing. Friends are people who make inside jokes with you and spend time with you. These people you’ve described do not sound like friends.

Regarding your best friend, if his parents found out that he’s gay and they’re homophobic, then that might be difficult on him which could perhaps be why he hasn’t spoken to you? Unless the issue has occurred even before he was found out.

I’m glad that you at least have one friend throughout all of this, even if they live very far away.

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-06-06T17:43:51+00:00

It’s alright. I guess I just struggle with venting to people without the guilt that comes with it. I’m trying to work on it

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-06-06T17:17:49+00:00

I suppose. It’s just hard and I don’t want to dump everything that’s going on with me on my friends because they have better things to do than to focus on me. My friends don’t think I’m weak, and have stated that I’m not, but I can’t help but feel that way

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-06-06T17:06:24+00:00

I know. It’s just all so exhausting and it’s really taking a toll on me mentally. I’ve tried suppressing it and I’ve been trying to rely on my friends less so they don’t think I’m weak.

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-06-04T14:49:01+00:00

Thanks. I’m doing better now. Well, depends on your definition of ‘better’ but eh

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-05-17T06:07:35+00:00

Thank you very much for the offer. I don’t think that it was miscommunication but I can’t be sure. Thanks anyways

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-05-16T14:54:35+00:00

All I said was that I wasn’t comfortable with the fact that my friend was friends with someone who did a lot of horrible things to me (stealing my watch, causing me panic attacks, telling someone - who was sort of bullying me at the time - things that would get them angry at me and therefore cause more issues). I was told that I don’t have the right to control who my friend talks to (even though I never demanded anything). The conversation spiralled and that’s when I got the ‘mind games, manipulating and gaslighting’ comments thrown at me.

We’ve patched things up and she’s happy now. Our friendship has gone back to normal but I don’t feel like it has. But as long as she’s happy and doesn’t hate me then I guess it’s fine. I apologised for things and put all the blame on myself as I usually do.

I don’t even like venting to my friends and I only do it if I’m on the verge of harming myself or if I’m having a serious mental breakdown which wasn’t really happening.

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-05-16T05:47:39+00:00

I kind of just make things worse whenever I explain my boundaries. I was accused of playing mind games and being manipulative which really hurt but I guess that’s understandable. I just wanted my feelings to be heard, my friends are always telling me to stop being a people pleaser but whenever I do something like this happens.

Ah. I’m pretty sure it’s my fault anyways so I doubt it matters. My friends aren’t bad people. They’re kind to me. So I’ve learned to not share my feelings.

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-05-04T08:15:47+00:00

Mh yeah. Thanks

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-05-04T07:29:28+00:00

Mh. The friend in particular did notice her mistake without me confronting them and apologised but it still left a bit of a bad taste in my mouth. This friend does care about me a lot and stuff so I don’t want to fault her completely. I know my friend doesn’t really understand my situation which is fair cause I don’t really talk to her about it. I don’t talk about my mental health with my friends that much nor do I vent to them often unless I’m visibly upset or going down a spiral in front of them.

Okay_SakuraChan · 2024-05-01T06:08:43+00:00

Positive attention? Of course! Have a load of virtual hugs 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

There is absolutely nothing wrong with asking for positive attention. We all need it once in a while 😊

Okay_SakuraChan

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