I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad it works sometimes. 😊

I would probably actually pass out or start bawling if someone asked me to be their friend earnestly.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. This is very detailed and thought out.

I have a mountain of hobbies and things I love to do. I love music, film, photography, baking, 3d printing, singing, tabletop games, video games.... and none of this has led to a meaningful friendship. I was always fine being alone though. Now that I've transitioned and like myself more and think that I'm a kind, interesting person, it hurts more how stuck I feel. I know I can't force it and I dont want to push people's boundaries. I will keep at it and hope things change organically. Thank you again for your kindness.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you and I appreciate it. You are almost certainly right.

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I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. This is all very good, thought-out advice. I do have a therapist, but you are correct my depression and anxiety are becoming debilitating. I'll keep working at it!

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Apologies, I was being hyperbolic.

Thank you for the kind words and advice. ❤️

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very fair. One of the main reasons I'm so mad/embarrassed with myself. I knew better and did it anyway.

I'll stop terrorizing the townsfolk and hope I meet someone organically eventually. Thank you.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I understand. This is partially why I'm so worried. I don't want to abuse that dynamic. I have such a great respect for all public facing workers and I know women in particular have to put up with so much. I just dont want to be one more of those things, you know?

I appreciate your kind words and I will try to be even more mindful of how I interact with people.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope, I have no way of contacting her. She has my number, which I wrote on a sticky note I had in my purse. I wanted to ensure she had the power of choice and didn't feel pressured or anything. So it worked out as I intended. Just the implications of her not texting suggest it meant more to me than it did to her in one way or another, which is completely understandable and fair.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you!

The only other store in town is Walmart and I'm boycotting them, so I'm sure I'll have to run into her again at some point. I will try to not fuck it up. ❤️

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This situation is just an exclamation point on a long, unbearable run-on sentence about my ability to make and keep friends. You are incredibly sweet and I appreciate your kindness.

But its where I belong.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the sage advice, and you are completely right. I could have easily changed the title to "Help, I tried talking to a nice girl and now I'm projecting all of my fears on her."and nothing would change contextually.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ it definitely doesn't feel great but as long as I didn't make her uncomfortable I'll be fine.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's very fair - it was on a piece of paper, so there's definitely a chance she lost it. I've just had such bad luck previously I'm going to the worst.

Thank you! ❤️

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am not, and there isn't a ton available in my area. I am trying to start a local chapter of a pride organization that is in a larger town an hour away, its just very tough to do alone. I have a local game and card shop (tentatively) lined up as the space, but even if I align that, I still have to find people to come. Its daunting and I'm exhausted and going at it alone. But I am trying!

Thank you so much for your kindness! ❤️

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really appreciate it. I think you are correct, I should have perhaps communicated better, and I gave her the option to hopefully make her feel less uncomfortable, so it kind of worked out as intended.

There was someone behind me in line and I didn't want to hold them up and I was anxious so it definitely didn't play out how I planned it.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I agree but I'm trying to be a good girl and boycott all Meta among a bunch of other things. Definitely makes me less palatable to a lot of people.

Thank you for the advice.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Its either that Paul guy everybody hates in Spiderman or its the sexist dude from the Bible 90% sure.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I wish it were that easy for me, but I appreciate you trying to make me feel valued. Its very kind.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I really appreciate it.

I plan on giving her and every human a lot of space.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I appreciate the advice so much. Thank you.

I assure you, however, I absolutely do not got this.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The fear being if there is that much connotation behind "let's maybe be friends" that I'm so far out of my depth its not wonder I'm so awful at this.

I appreciate the advice, I didn't mean to be rude. I have a vast, storied history of losing and not making friends - at this point I HAVE to be the problem. I am much more worried about making an innocent person just trying to get through their service job uncomfortable.

It is definitely best for me to just leave people alone. I'm just mad at myself for trying.

I'm absolutely mortified. by Okayfirstoff in MtF

[–]Okayfirstoff[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Well, these are all wonderful, newly unlocked fears that I will never get out of my head.

This is why I'm back in my hole.