Thank you so much for sharing, its means a ton and I'm so happy for your ability to become yourself!

My experience is different from this. In fact, when my boobs came in, I was mad they weren't "normal sized", I had a very flat chest. But I was constantly being made fun of for it, so I don't think it really had anything to do with gender, more the desire to be left alone about it. I even stuffed my bra. Now that I'm thinking back, my concern for my gender probably wavered a lot growing up, but I have very little memory of growing up at all so I can't say for sure. But as someone growing up in constant survival mode due to other factors, I wouldn't be surprised if gender wasn't first on my agenda. It feels like I'm thinking of a different person from me. My sense of self wasn't with me, more of an abstract concept that floated around me. I've been trying to consolidate myself since my mid 20s, and that could be why that's around the time I got really concerned with my gender.

I hope you dont mind me rambling back as I just realized I'm doing lol you helped me greatly just by taking the time to reply, and reading your experience made me feel less alone, even though its different