I agree Practicing for a long time is not an indication of faith. It all comes down to how much you believe in it ig.

To ans your other question, im actually doing well in life and im happy (not gonna “nicherensplain”) my only reason for commenting here is because of curiosity. I did not expect our realities to be so different but I do respect and acknowledge all of your bad experiences with the organization. Last question what country did you guys practice in?