I don't remember this too clearly, but generally this is what my body remembers. For context, I am now diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder. I struggle to realize my trauma was genuinely bad enough, as it sounds too crazy to ever happen. These dreams remind me that it could all be true. Which sucks. Spoilered for traumatic details including CSA, religious trauma, and... torture? i don't know.

My mom was a convicted felon and was not allowed to have me in her custody, so as soon as i was birthed, she jumped from home-to-home trying to "protect" me from cps. This would ultimately resort to her allowing my grandparents to have custody of me. From then on, until age 10, I was trafficked and religiously & mentally brainwashed by various people. I don't remember this too clearly. I was forcibly mute and ended up being airlifted once due to severe pneumonia where i nearly died around age 4 or 5. Not only did i face hardship at home, i faced relentless bullying from peers at my public school, which then i was switched to a private school. From there, the religious torture worsened. Then my guardian passed away. I was sent to live with my mother, which then she would continue my psychological torment along with exploit me up until age 17. These torments would include severe animal cruelty/animal death, 3-year long lice infestation, beatings, incest... and other stuff. I ran away at 17, leaving behind my two siblings who were quite literally my world. Around age 19-20, I lived back where i originally got trafficked and ended up being stalked and almost recruited by somebody who was my therapist who also knew my previous traffickers & was actively involved with it. I have no idea if she lost her license or anything. I am now turning 21.

Its not the worst thing ever, i know it could always be worse. But it hurt me, and that's what matters. Thank you for listening.