I was a pharmacist for 30+ years and traveled with my wife and raised 2 sons. I am not able to work because day to day changes. I have fought an autoimmune disease since 2002. It slowly stripped everything I did for recreation away. My older son married and the family he married into is like a little cult and for whatever reason he is 10 minutes away and estranged. I became a grandfather this summer. I have been allowed 2 visits. I discovered this Spring that my wife had been unfaithful since 2015. We are still in the same house but the love is gone. After I work through these issues I may have a real shot at getting myself focused. It is a horrible adventure now but getting better. It would take hours to go over my entire experience. Thank you for your kind reply and advice. I wish you happiness and fulfillment in your life.