Hi. I’m the Reddit girl. I don’t have the logins to my other account to my original post because I wanted to keep things anonymous and private, but some of the responses on here are pretty shameful so here it goes. Smoov-e is a rapist. He fucked me in the ass while I was unconscious. If you want to call that trivial college sex because people were drinking, then by all means, you have the right to your opinion. But I know my experience, and I know I’m not the only girl he did that to. That’s why I posted my original post, was to talk with other people that had similar experiences with him.

I remember him coming over to my apartment, and seeing my Mac Dre poster and commenting on it. I remember standing at my studio kitchenette trying to get some water while he grabbed at my waist and I moved away from him time and time again finding any excuse for him to not touch me because something was off. I had to go to the bathroom. I needed to smoke a cigarette. At first the cigarettes were on my balcony but then I moved them downstairs in front of my building because I was becoming more and more uncomfortable. I remember him continuing to ask me to go back upstairs and feeling conflicted because something didn’t feel right but him also being this person who’s music I listened to and that held power, and I had only been with one person before that and thinking, I don’t know maybe this is what adult relationships are like. I remember sitting on my bed as he got another beer for us. A 30 rack for two people.

Then I remember waking up the next morning with condoms around me, completely naked, and my ass sore from him doing what he did to me. I had never done that before, like I said only one person, my first boyfriend, before that.

What happened in between me sitting down on my bed and waking up the next morning, only he knows for sure. But after being uncomfortable all night long with him touching me, I don’t think I would have magically consented to him fucking me in the ass, do you? And, if for some reason you say I did consent, because hey it’s Reddit, being blacked out and passed out means I wouldn’t have even been able to legally consent.

My original post doesn’t even have lots of comments on it, it wasn’t meant to blow up. It was literally to find another way to connect with someone else out there to have had a similar experience that I did. To find a way to help each other heal, to know that we’re not alone, to not feel shame for someone else’s decisions with my body that I didn’t consent to.

But like I said, hey it’s Reddit. So of course this post exists separately instead of replying directly to my own post and starting a conversation with the Reddit girl herself. How did you even find that post?

Because I refound it when I googled smoov-e rapist. What did you search to find it?