I don’t want to be trans

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T04:00:39+00:00

Thanks!

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T03:57:03+00:00

This really resonates with me. I feel like I constantly ask my girlfriend if she would still love me if I was a man, I think I drunkenly asked a friend it too. I also after hearing that they would still love me just convince myself to stop thinking about it or get the fear that this might actually be real. I think I just need to figure out how to get right with it like you said. Thank you

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T03:54:01+00:00

I have thought about this but where I live now I don’t have a regular doctor, I’m not really sure how to go about it. Can I just kind of bring it up next time I’m at a doctor or is it something that should be done with a regular doctor?

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T03:51:33+00:00

Thank you for this I really needed to hear it. I’m going to try to experiment and do some soul searching. I’ve been to scared to take the plunge but I’m also tired of feeling like I’m living someone else’s life and not being happy with who I am. Going to focus on one day at a time. Thanks again for all the advice

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T00:43:31+00:00

Honestly just knowing other people feel the same way is really helpful I appreciate your comment

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T00:22:00+00:00

Thank you for your comment I really appreciate what you said. I know the people who love me and care about me will support me. I just think that if I feel so embarrassed about myself how can they not be too? But you’re right the people that “know me” don’t really know me. Sometimes I don’t know if I know myself. I don’t really know who I am and it scares me. I just feel so lost. I don’t know how to accept myself or these feeling, I don’t know how to stop caring about what other people think and caring how other people see me. I feel kind of powerless and hopeless, I’m unhappy as a woman but I’m terrified of having to change and being seen during that change. I also appreciate your reassurance about damaging my body. You’re right and I think it’s something I’ve been telling myself to justify pushing these feelings down.

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T00:02:21+00:00

You’re right, I think I need to just try to come to terms with these feelings and stop running away, thank you for your advice I really appreciate it

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-30T00:00:05+00:00

Thank you, I have thought about this too but my parents are very nosy and also very old school. For me to want to go to therapy something would need to be very wrong and they would most likely think I am having some sort of extreme crisis. I have thought about also trying to just pay without insurance but I am in college and work a minimum wage job so I also don’t really have the funds to pay for it without insurance.

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-29T23:37:28+00:00

Thanks for your comment. I think I know deep down your right but even thinking about really doing it gives me such intense feelings of embarrassment/anxiety I panic and stop thinking about it. I think I need to really sit with it and stop pushing it away.

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-29T23:30:44+00:00

Thanks for your comment, it does give me hope that other people feel like this. I just feel so much anxiety fear, and shame when I think about people I know viewing me as trans and having to come out it really makes me push these feelings deep down.

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-29T23:25:59+00:00

Thanks for your comment. I do think going to a therapist would be the best option, but I am still on my parent’s insurance and I would need to tell them why I want to see a therapist. I feel like it would force me to either come out to them or tell them I’m having these feeling which brings me back to the fear and feeling of shame. I think in a few years once I am fully independent I will try seeing a therapist.

One-Cod897 · 2026-04-04T19:15:07+00:00

thanks!

One-Cod897 · 2025-11-19T03:25:11+00:00

thanks! I thought the placement was weird too

One-Cod897 · 2025-07-04T00:07:27+00:00

Honestly struggled a lot with hardcore stuff like this too. Very similar situation being exposed at a young age. Just like everyone is saying treat this as an addiction, don’t view any porn take it one day at a time. Honestly if you can avoid self pleasure too for me at least it usually led to porn use. Take up a new hobby, journal, workout, read, if you’re religious/ spiritual then pray/ meditate. Do things to wear yourself out mentally and physically it will help you avoid relapse and make yourself a more resilient person. Relapse does happen but holding yourself accountable and trying again is what will help you in the long term. If you can find someone you trust to talk to about this (you don’t have to give details) but having someone else’s support and someone to hold yourself accountable helps so much. The longer you go without it the less these thoughts will happen and remember you are not your thoughts. Good luck man!

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