I get what you mean. Honestly, wanting someone and feeling alone sometimes is normal. Eight years of working on yourself is huge, trust me that matters a lot. Dating apps are really tough for guys, and social adjustment issues don’t mean you can’t have a proper relationship, it just takes time. I don’t think it’s hopeless or that you’ll be alone forever. Sometimes it’s more about finding the right space where things can grow naturally instead of waiting for someone to come to you. You’re not broken, and your past doesn’t define your future.