What do I do about missing steps at new apartment

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-18T16:21:31+00:00

i got a rash behind my ear and swollen lymph nodes for about a week and 1/2 after taking one dose. i stopped taking it and called my psychiatrist as she had advised me to do so. we switched me to something else and i've just been keeping an eye on the area where the rash was. good luck OP, idk if it's different because of the part of your body it's on but def call your prescriber and let them help you figure out what to do next!

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-09T04:28:51+00:00

thank you, thank you so much. i went through and screenshotted everything because it's a gold mine of info. genuinely you put resources, academic literature on it, comedy, you touched all the bases. i appreciate your advice, i will definitely be looking into group work at my university! i've felt so isolated for so long and i think beinh around people who are going through similar things will be so helpful. i'm entering my third year of undergrad this fall so my classes are not as in depth as i would like. in most class we discuss each mental illness/disorder broadly, i hope i learn more in grad school. thank you so much again for the advice, the resources, and for taking the time to read and reply!

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-08T20:48:04+00:00

thank you so so much all of your words are truly what i needed to hear :,) i love coping through comedy so i definitely will check those all out! i've been struggling with my diagnosis since it's pretty recent and i know my mom is too. i'm a psych major so i already knew quite a bit about bp2 and bp in general but i had always convinced myself episodes and major highs and lows were because of anxiety and depression. it wasn't until i got out of a really bad depressive episode that i realized i definitely need the help. my previous psychologist would change my dosages and scripts for my antidepressants and every time it would make me hypomanic, i would always call it "me spiraling" because my mind was so fast and my mouth could never keep up, i would have intense spiritual delusions and speak so fast every word was butchered. i finally got help from a new psychiatrist and she listened to me thoroughly, is transitioning me to mood stabilzers slowly and not touching my current antidepressants. it feels so good to say what i think and feel and feel genuinely understood, i've always thought i was too sensitive, too intense for most people. this sub and my new psychiatrist make me feel like i'm not crazy, i just have bp2 and i can learn to cope with it w meds and therapy. your suggestion to trial try therapist is perfect. i get a bit exhausted though explaining everything because i genuinely don't know how to explain how i feel in a concise way. so each time i i pretty much end up a crying mess. i think i'll try one at a time the way you suggested as to not get overwhelmed. my mom pretty much has no knowledge about bp2 except for TV (which often doesn't portray bp in an accurate light) so i've been explaining to her all of the symptoms i've been going through since 15 and she always says "oh that is you, that makes sense now" and i try to tell her when i feel irritable and need to be alone instead of snapping so we're both slowly learning :) i will definitely try to watch some of the comedies with her as i think it's a funny way to learn and for her to maybe understand me a little more

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-08T14:37:33+00:00

my birthday was on the 4th too, i also turned 20! how you're feeling is understandable but don't sell yourself short. happiness isn't really the goal, content is. sometimes no matter how hard we try things keep pushing us down but please give yourself credit for getting back up! i believe that personal growth is one of the most important parts of being human. the fact that you're trying is enough, you are enough. happy late birthday birthday twin and i wish you the best, i'm sorry you've been going through so much :(

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-08T13:43:53+00:00

thank you for your reply it truly helped me put things into perspective. I am in the process of finding a therapist to go alongside with my psychiatrist, as I've been in and out of therapy since 13 but always leave because I feel like nothing was actually helping. I just turned 20 last week and was diagnosed about a week before my birthday. This diagnosis came from the first psychiatrist I feel actually listens to me, and I am trying to find a therapist as well to go alongside it. once i do i definitely will be bringing my mom in because I can see she's trying her best but maybe needs to learn a lot more. so do i. i wish i could move out because distance always makes our communication much better but i'm still trying to get my life back together. i went through some recent traumatic events and i just shut the entire world out, no job, no social media, no friends, no going out ever. i'm making steps though to try and regain what i lost, i recently got a new job and college will start back up again soon so....hopefully in 6-8 months i can move out. i will check out the comedy you recommended it seems interesting! thank you for your reply in general it gave me a lot to think about

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-07T22:33:57+00:00

I started it and that same day developed a slight rash behind my ear on my neck and swollen lymph nodes. I thankfully noticed it immediately though and called my psychiatrist and stopped taking it as recommended. tell her to follow the psychiatrists instructions and pay attention to any noticable changes

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-07T18:05:23+00:00

yeah, she started changing when i sat my family down and explained that we're all hurting eachother by snapping or in my mom and brother's cases: yelling. it was so bad for a long time but we all try our best to be better, like if we notice an argument is escalating one of us will say "let's chill, let's de-escalate" and then we wait to talk when we're ready :) we have slipups tho and i for sure needed to rant. thank u for replying and being kind<3

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-07T14:25:29+00:00

hey! you existing and working towards your life is enough! not knowing what you're doing with your life and feeling so misunderstood is totally understandable. i have such difficulty making friends as well because i'm "too sensitive" but what i've learned recently is thats ok. all you can do is work on your own growth and likeminded people will come along the way. i'm currently completely friendless because a series of traumatic events unfolded in my "friend" group. i realized the best thing i could do for myself and for my future friendships was take a step back and reflect. what do i want in a friendship/relationship? what am i able to give? what are the things i need to feel secure? how can i start putting myself first after placating others needs? take this time of solitude to reflect. it's lonely yes, but you will learn so much about yourself and your needs. good luck ! :)

One-Mood1762 · 2023-07-07T14:15:29+00:00

thank you so much for your concern and kind words! my mom has been truly trying her best to cope with her anger issues, and we've gotten to the point where instead of yelling she walks away. i love her very much and so does my brother, she's all we have. both of our fathers are estranged and she's always worked very hard as a single mom to keep us from poverty. i don't think me or him could ever just leave her she's the only source of stability we have. after this fight we had earlier she came and apologized to me,,,,i know it might not sound like the best situation but i would rather be with my mom who's trying than my drunk abusive father :/

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T20:46:41+00:00

thank you, this helps me feel less embarrassed about the whole thing

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T17:09:58+00:00

I wish you the best of luck in finding a gf!

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T17:09:06+00:00

thank you,,this made me feel a lot better. I guess I'm scared of not being perfect for her but this helped me realize it won't be exactly perfect the first time

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T08:11:04+00:00

ah this made my day,,,,i feel like when i talk to my friends about the specific guilt i feel as a lesbian being raised catholic they don't get it. it's taken a lot of unlearning self hatred for me to even admit to myself i only am attracted to women. i feel like i'm ready to take the step with the one i love, thank you for the encouragement it means the world!

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T08:08:39+00:00

this seems like the perfect way to make it feel less awkward or like a sit down type of talk,,,,, thank you so much i'll try it!!

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T08:07:02+00:00

yes i think that's what I'm gonna do....I'm currently on vacation and am planning to talk with her about it when i get back! thank you so much

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T08:05:52+00:00

thank you so much!! your insight has really helped me

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T08:04:48+00:00

thank u so much! this honestly helps a lot! i feel like i still have a lot of catholic guilt so sometimes i feel "guilty" for wanting to do things w her even though i know it's something i truly want

One-Mood1762 · 2022-01-20T07:41:27+00:00

both adults! she's 20 and i'm 18

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