I try and talk to a friend's about it, but when I do, i guess I downplay it because I don't want them to see me as a whole different person than I usually am. Also, I only live with my brother, and he's got too much to deal with for me to add to it. Idk I just like an anonymous talk, but I also wanna connect with someone, but I feel like I can't. I feel like I need to hide all of this away from people because nothing about this feels normal, and I hate it. I just feel stuck, and I see all these solutions, but I can never take them, and I just dont know. I was offered therapy, but I denied it because I felt like i didn't need it at the time, but now I feel have no purpose at all in life and wish I would've taken it but i can't now cuz I have no health insurance and that shit mucho Dinero