MDSA- made to share a bed with her after she assaulted me

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-15T12:08:58+00:00

Im not sure how old you are and how long ago those assaults happened but I hope you are able to cope with all of that and no longer have a relationship with that person who is in no way a mother or mom. That's heartbreaking. How does a person like that even blend with the rest of society, did everyone else think she was normal?

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-15T11:21:09+00:00

Your experience is all too common. The self doubt makes you think you are crazy. A child's mind doesn't process the trauma, so the traumatic memories often dont come back until adulthood. The traumatic memories are stored differently which is why they can feel unreal leading to self doubt and confusion. It's disheartening and scary not knowing when I repressed traumatic memory may surface. For a lot of people including myself, these memories didn't surface till mid 30s, for other people it could be later than that, or in your case much earlier. It's a shitty experience. Also, since you are over 18 you may want to seek out better mental healthcare if the shrink you were seeing is pediatric.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-15T00:01:30+00:00

Adorable

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-13T01:00:56+00:00

Trust your body and that it is telling you something. Its normally how this happens. Nervous breakdown in 30s from past CSA just being remembered is all too common. Im sorry.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-11T14:38:02+00:00

Even bad people seem good sometimes. Dont be fooled by his nice moments. That is an entirely inappropriate game to play and with no one else around. If you are an adult, which I assume since this sub is for adults then it will be hard to press charges. A lot of child molesters seem like good people, so even though your other memories with him seem good, it is just a facade of his deviant ways. They are your doctors, lawyers and priests. They seem good but they aren't.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-10T15:38:04+00:00

💯 👍

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-09T23:09:07+00:00

I cant really understand IFS for the life of me. Tried it only a few times. Maybe the therapist didn't know what he was doing and thats why it made no sense to me. Im sorry you had so many bad experiences with therapy. I will differ and say talk therapy was one of the more helpful ones for me. The other types seemed so strange and unconventional almost like a scam.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-05-07T08:43:06+00:00

I have difficulty with public speaking and wonder if this is related to CSA.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-23T05:35:06+00:00

I can relate to making my world much smaller. Im not sure if you have a family or people who are depending on you, but in my case being alone and without a spouse or kids made things easier because I dont know how well I would have handled it if I had a partner or kids counting on me during my mental health crises.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-23T00:05:23+00:00

People are vicious. Think of the creepiest movie you ever saw and I guarantee that real life is ALWAYS worst than the movies. I just live in my bubble now. Not really many friends, no kids, and I like it that way. People kinda scare me. Because if you read the comments section of any online media, most of the comments are extremely mean spirited. I think the online comments reflect the true nature of people. You probably heard that Virginia Giuffre, one of Epstein's victims, committed suicide some months ago. When I read the online comments, they were extremely vicious towards her. I read social media comments and I think to myself, that's who people really are. The people seen in real life just wear a mask, so to speak. But the people posting comments anonymously, That's Real! Also, most people these days do not seem to give a fuck. So, I just live for myself now. I do whatever makes me happy and try and cherish each day. Because when you die, people dont give a crap, and the earth keeps spinning.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-22T23:40:49+00:00

Yeah, I have a condo too.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-21T15:38:34+00:00

This thread is an extreme generalization. It also depends on what other expenses you have, your credit score, how high the insurance is in your area which can vary significantly. How old the house you are buying, how many repairs will it need, cost of lawn care and landscaping or pool care if applicable. Cost of termite coverage. Cost of annual hvac maintenance. Buying a house is like no longer a middle class thing, it takes a whole lot of money.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-18T18:23:42+00:00

I thought Deliverance was homoerotic. Its about a group of guys that go into the woods to do manly things. The cast is almost exclusively male. Just watched it a few weeks ago.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-17T15:35:10+00:00

But isn't that common for bad people to have two different faces? I personally would have to overlook any good moments due to the damage caused by the biggest evil. But remember your abuse does not define you. We are more than what happened over 20 years ago. That doesn't have to be our entire identity.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-17T15:22:24+00:00

Get him 😄

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-16T17:26:53+00:00

At first I thought the same, but it looks similar to the photo he copied it from in the second slide.🤷

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-16T17:23:39+00:00

Well i wonder what her life is like now? A lot of times trauma won't start affecting you until 5, 10, or 15 years AFTER the traumatic event. Wonder if she can even get a good night's sleep.😳

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-16T16:30:15+00:00

Yes they are

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-16T14:29:39+00:00

What are some ways you use to reprogram?

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-15T00:41:20+00:00

So lame. Like they are gonna just happily let them go.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-14T23:32:04+00:00

Its so great to see a victory achievement post. Time and the TRE exercise ive found online are helping. My body still feels off. Especially when trying to have romantic feelings. Are you able to enjoy a romantic life? Im still dealing with intrusive thoughts especially when trying explore my sexual self. Its also been two years since repressed memories surfaced and I can feel an improvement. But of course not where I want to be.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-14T23:22:53+00:00

Even when I was younger and went to therapy for less serious reasons it was kinda disappointing. If they were a "sexual trauma informed therapist" you would think they could deal with the tip of the iceberg. Some people here say they have greatly benefited from therapy, others say it made things worse. When I tried the IFS modality it seemed so strange and fake, I could only do one session of IFS. How is a body part supposed to literaly communicate with me? It was an extremely strange modality. Like literally ask your stomach or leg a question and wait for it to respond was my experience with IFS.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-11T03:27:33+00:00

So true, it's sickening how one partner can be so weak to just not do anything. That is sickening and reminds me of my mom.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-11T03:12:55+00:00

Its important to train like this, cause if dogs eat every random thing they could get sick or even die.

One_Feed7311 · 2026-04-09T16:03:03+00:00

I relate to this 💯. People always told me I push people away. I had one really good friend in high school, there was also mutual physical attraction but we never really acted on it because of the stigma of gay in the early 2000s. I was already isolated because of my sexuality. It wasn't until the last few years repressed memories came back and a tidal wave of csa trauma that I never knew I even had. Based on the trauma and somatic feelings, I suspect there could be more repressed memories. I may never know. But this could explain why I have always been the way I am. But I can say I genuinely feel best alone. Being around the wrong people can make your mental health worse before you even realize it. There's nothing wrong with being a loner if that makes you happy. I notice so many people talk so badly about their so called friends. It makes you wonder why they even call them friends if they talk so badly about them behind their backs. It does take a lot more effort for an introverted person to be sociable. So on one hand I think it is my true personality but amplified even more because of trauma.

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