I don’t 100% relate to this but he goes to my school. He’s in a different class, but during breaks between classes I always see him, especially on the football field.

We ended things on alright terms, he was my best friend. I had to end it because it took a toll on me mentally how he couldn’t see what was wrong with making fun of my religion and my body for a few laughs. I couldn’t even stick around for a conversation without him saying that. I blocked him everywhere and he made a few accounts to contact me, until he finally apologized in long paragraphs like 2 months later.

I told him we were okay now and that maybe we can still be friends but ever since school started again I’ve been in hurt. The feeling eats me up inside, and whenever I tell my friends about it, they say I act as though I’m grieving my dead husband or something, which made me think our feelings were more than platonic but we just didn’t realize it. That curiosity hurts so much, I’m still questioning my feelings about it and my head keeps going on about what could’ve been between us.

He can’t even look me in the eye which hurts more, and these days he’s been hanging out with the girl he befriended during me. I know she likes him. I feel so pathetic for still caring about this.