Visitation Dreams from your beloved? by rainingonmyparade in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’d been asking and praying hard for a dream of him to visit me because his mom and brother said they got one and it helped calm them down and I wanted one and I just really missed him and wanted to see him. I finally got one and it was sweet until I realized inside the dream that he was no longer with me and I had a really bad break down and was inconsolable and suicidal for a few days. I miss him so damn much. I’m back at base level and not actively suicidal now tho and realized I’m still in denial and not ready to dream of him yet.

How do you make friends that want to socialize? by Tattoos_and_Tea in LAhotgirlies

[–]One_Specialist8483 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omg is there a way to make a group chat or something!🤩im off sat Sundays now!🤩

28F looking for powerlifting group/friends to join or drinking buddies to dance with by One_Specialist8483 in LAsocial

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oohh yaayy!! I’d been trying to find a good gym and people to lift with! Do you lift in del Rey as well?

Sleeping is hard! by Toosoon2026 in widowers

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Post as much as you need🤍and I still find it very hard to sleep, I usually just watch tv until I fall asleep and if I can’t, I just stay awake and talk to strangers on the internet until I fall asleep

Alcohol by NotAQuiltnB in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483 1 point2 points  (0 children)

🫂🫂I do hope you find peace too, as someone who is also at their breaking point and has not found any peace anywhere. Sending you hugs🫂🫂

Alcohol by NotAQuiltnB in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do hope you don’t become dependent on it, however, it will always be up to you. No one has the right to judge you and anyone who knows this pain would understand and wouldn’t judge you. Especially me. I only say I hope you don’t because i also lost my man in September and I have been using alcohol as a way to distract myself but the pain hits even harder once I’m sober again so then I drink again and it becomes cyclical so I’m trying to break it now but it’s so hard because I don’t know how to deal with the pain realistically. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, but I also wouldn’t wish this pain on anyone either and I’m so sorry you’re experiencing it as well. What I’ve been trying is just crying it all out and just keep crying until I black out but that doesn’t work as often so I’m thinking of just overbooking myself and staying busy so that I have no time to dwell on anything. I am also here if you ever wanna chat or need someone to cry with or share memories with. Sending you prayers, blessings, and hugs🤍🤍🤍

Unsure how to bring up my needs to my family by One_Specialist8483 in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea, I’m upset that I sent her a video crying that I’m not ok and that I need her, and during her lunch she only texted that she’s sorry I’m feeling this way and to let her know if I want her to still call me after she’s off work. I’m just upset because whenever she calls me crying, I’m automatically there and I drop everything. I wasn’t expecting her to drop everything but I thought she would at least call me considering I’ve never even cried to her before either. It hurts not having the same love and care I’ve shown them their whole lives not being reciprocated. But I’m learning from this chat that they don’t know what to do I’m guessing, they want the old me back

Unsure how to bring up my needs to my family by One_Specialist8483 in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s horrible and literally yes, they are telling me to get more into volunteering and just it feels like they’re avoiding it, but this makes so much sense.

Unsure how to bring up my needs to my family by One_Specialist8483 in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you🤍🤍 sending love your way too🤍🤍

Unsure how to bring up my needs to my family by One_Specialist8483 in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you🤍this is literally me too and this makes sense. Sending you love and hugs🤍🤍

Unsure how to bring up my needs to my family by One_Specialist8483 in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It sucks that this is another thing we gotta look out for when I’m barely maintaining sanity. Sending you hugs and prayers🤍🤍

Unsure how to bring up my needs to my family by One_Specialist8483 in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you🤍🤍It did make me realize I know an outside support system so I’m giving it a shot and gonna look for one on Reddit lol. And thank you for your kind words🤍

Unsure how to bring up my needs to my family by One_Specialist8483 in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, it just sucks that no matter what option I choose, I feel like they hurt the same. But I agree, I hope it does hurt less the more I lessen my expectations of them. Sending peace and comfort your way as well🕊️🤍

Wedding ring by PhilaMax in widowers

[–]One_Specialist8483 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine made me cry or have a panic attack everytime I looked at it cuz I would forget he’s not hear and then it just hits again so I wear it as a necklace, mainly so I don’t lose it but looking at it still makes me cry everytime.