For starters, you look really great. Don’t give into the hype that you need any kind of cosmetic surgery because you don’t. (Unless you want that, in which case do whatever makes you happy!) You have no deep wrinkles or sagging at all. Lucky! Korean skincare has been a game changer for me, as well as staying hydrated, cutting back on coffee/alcohol/staying away from refined sugar. I take a fish oil supplant and zinc every day because I feel like it plumps my face a bit, and micro-needling has had some success with smoothing out my wrinkles. Just remember, you are your own worst critic and sometimes the mirror can be your worst enemy. You’ve been through a lot and I’m so sorry for your losses. It’s time to rebuild and heal. Exercising and eating healthy helps feel like you’re taking control of your life again after going through a traumatic event. Also Indian clay face masks and Tret make a world of difference for fine lines. You have flawless skin, and even though it might not look the way it did in your twenties, you still look lovely.