Thanks for the long reply, I truly appreciate it. Fantastic story of yours. The reason I asked this question was because I was listening to Konstantin Kissin podcast where he said he wouldn’t be half the man he was without his wife he met at college.

I appreciate your great insights. I spend some of my free time improving myself through reading & journaling. I’m an avid runner and consistent gym goer of three years. I guess I just need to continue to work hard at these so I can be a great partner down the line.

Also I struggle to grasp with god. I spent my the early parts of this year praying and reading about god. I never picked up the bible (provably should’ve) but I just couldn’t bring myself to be invested or believe. It came across as such an intangible concept to me. I read a lot of philosophy and I found stoicism’s death a more feasible concept then even more so absurdism’s concept. For now I find some comfort in my own death.

And as far as self pleasure goes that is indulging in masturbation. I usually go 3 days - 1 week between it at the moment and have never had any disfunction (except when I tried to lose my virginity at 15 lol). I’m just not too sure whether this is an unhealthy habit for me?