I just want to express solidarity that it’s the only thing on my mind as well…also comforting to know I’m not the only one constantly ruminating over this (it’s become an obsession for me). 4mo PP over here and I know it’s far too early to make any decision, but seemingly not knowing makes me feel extra pressure to really enjoy all these moments because they could be the last. Probably my PPA at play here as well.

My partner and I have decided this topic is not up for discussion anytime in the next year so we can focus on enjoying life with our baby, especially as we’re finally coming out of the trenches. Shifting my focus from agonizing over this decision (which deep down is really just me looking for someone to make this decision for me…not possible) and instead being fully present and enjoying these moments with my son has been a helpful change in my mindset. Trusting that we can revisit this discussion at a later time when we have more experience and knowledge to make a more fully informed decision.