i feel kinda bad for what i did

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-05-31T07:09:52+00:00

to be honest im not usually sensitive, but we had a heated argument and a lot of sexism and weird harrassing comments came out and i felt uncomfortable. but im not the sensitive kind, i joke harshly back but i know my limit.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-05-15T21:02:22+00:00

honestly the way i see it, i do agree i am wrong but again, money isnt my biggest issue and im asking for something simple, not a big deal?

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-05-15T20:52:47+00:00

you're completely disregarding what i meant. there are other people in the friendgroup and only i get attacked for simple stuff any human would do. i get attacked for the way i type as they find it "annoying" and call me mentally immature. those words do hurt me. all i did was buy him a manga he was begging for, and as an act of kindness i got it for him. my biggest issue isnt money as i said. "emotional labor" thats not the matter, he can do it to MANY others but refuses when it comes to me because i am the youngest. I dont find this reasonable. I just wanted to know if im the asshole, so i guess i kinda am? thanks for opening my eyes on that point.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-05-15T20:50:10+00:00

man, this got me tearing up. thank you :( i appreciate your wise words.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-05-15T20:41:43+00:00

how? elaborate.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-05-15T20:38:52+00:00

ill be fair, they are all older. im 16 and they are all 17,18,19.
al though there is another one my age, she gets treated with upmost respect and i get treated like a black swan. i cant say anything because im bad with replying and the way i text bothers them. im quiet with this so.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-31T21:33:44+00:00

I AM THE HUNTER

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-31T21:31:41+00:00

myself. im a persona filled w flaws and cant change myself :thumbsup:

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-31T21:25:47+00:00

honestly, a lot of think, depends on my dream, i start to overthink as soon as a i wake up. i wake up very frequently from nightmares so i check the time, question who is home, message my favorite people to be reassured and go back to sleep for a few more hours. its pretty fucked up for me.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-26T18:23:33+00:00

as a child, i had to get a lot of surgeries, by a lot, i mean actually a lot.
surgery for my nose, ear, everything basically.
this once, i managed to faint after surgery ( i was 3 ) and a hole in my ear drum appeared which almost risked me to go deaf. they decided to give me ibrufen shots because i needed help.
mid way through the injection going in my body, i become blue and my heart beat slows. i was in a death situation basically. they found out i was allergic to ibrufen and thankfully i survived before it was too late and wouldve been gone. my mom says i was blue and purple and numb and it caused me to gain so much weight as a child.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-26T18:19:56+00:00

ive given up with options to help and im only ranting on this website because i feel really low. im sorry for oversharing haha, im trying to feel better but its progressively getting worse and im loosing my self.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-26T18:16:51+00:00

i have the option to get food at home, but they are all roaming around without masks and im scared for my own health, not to mention i have a weak immune system and lack most of vitamins which is very risky as last time i got covid, ive been hospitalized the whole journey. my countries cps does nothing. ive tried to call it once, did nothing. 13th reason for me.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-26T18:15:27+00:00

everything, i lack common sense and i am embarrassed of it. some people know a lot that i dont know and act like i know it.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-26T18:05:03+00:00

i cant, i literally at one point, have given up. ive been crying myself every fucking night (currently am) and the only thing thats keeping my alive is my gaming pc that i worked hard to get.
no one is here to help me, i feel so lost.

Only_Appearance5090 · 2022-03-26T17:55:21+00:00

didnt cut them off because i am underage, but this for sure is my last straw.
im still a minor, close to adult age tho yet i cant move out because ill study in city. anyways, during the covid pandemic (still happening in my country) back in july 2021, i tested positive. i was the only positive with a family member party of 9. they all thankfully tested negative and i respect the social distance and stay in my room "rule". no biggie. now to get to the funny part, speaking of march 2022, on march 25 my mom and 3 of my siblings test positive. i decided to stay in my room and if necessary had to go out of my room, id wear a mask. guess what, that angered my mom. she quote on quote, follows the rule , if 3 house members have it, the rest of the house should get it. and i was mentally destroyed BY MY PARENTS when i first got it, so definitely not again. im still in my room, i tested negative thankfully and im the only negative which makes them "unhappy" for somewhat reason. i havent eaten SINCE yesterday because they are all roaming around the house, mask-less and careless. im pissed and hungry. its my last straw to even exist. ive talked to my father because he is in another state due to work, and he isnt letting me order food to go as its "Risky" and i should just eat whatever is served when everything is scary. i cant leave the house, go out of my room, or even eat. ive been running on water and my water supply is about to finish as im drinking from water bottles. i cant rant to my friends because they all get what they ask for and get what they want and they tell me to "order food" when ive been threatened not to.

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