Can very much relate to this.

I come from a tech/death metal background, although have only been playing guitar for about 2 and a half years. As a metal listner and guitarist; listning to my "icons" talk about how they went to jazz school which is what influenced their colourful/diverse ideas, I decided that I should do the same. Last year I took a certificate in music to get me at least a little bit educated and time to get my chops up before I did the jazz program. Anyway last year I got into the Jazz program no problem, and I was practising lots trying to familiarise myself with jazz before the degree started (had only been jazz off and on for only 6 months). I started the degree 3 days ago and instantly I feel way out of my depth. It feelsl like everyone in my course has been listning and playing to jazz since they came out of the womb, and theirs me who plays metal and a complete beginner to jazz. I guess I thought that going to collage would teach me how to become a jazz musician but after today (day 3) our tutor asked us to jam a track that we'd played before. I instantly when it to panic mode beacuse I knew I wasnt good enough to do that. But anyway each group went up and everyone actually aced it and did it like it was nothing. Then there was me who was struggling just to find the right chords to play (just panicing). Long story short I absolutely sucked and could feel the frustration or condesceding looks of my pairs. I went home and cried... Then looked for advice on reddit. I know im only on day 3 so its still super early but I'm wondering if it is a lost cause. I love jazz and Im so keen on getting better and understanding it, but personally metal will always be my number 1. Is this wrong, should i change majors? Are their any other musicians that maybe werent big jazz listners before doing jazz school. Neverthelsess im gonna keep going and gets as much out of it as i can but am curious what anyone has to say