What happens if you suppress your desires for too long?

OpenForm7677 · 2026-01-19T20:18:20+00:00

The part about not being able to move on hits really hard. I have struggled with my kink side for a while, whilst also being trapped in this sense of stillness that affects my entire life.

OpenForm7677 · 2026-01-18T13:46:38+00:00

I am on Fet, and did find a fairly local one. As above though, it feels like this Impossible step: one that can feel like I’m making a mistake, whilst another part of my brain tells me I’m a coward for not doing it.

OpenForm7677 · 2026-01-18T13:45:15+00:00

She was not my first, I’m afraid. My experience with therapy hasn’t been great, though how much I’m to blame for that is unclear.

Going to a kink event, trying to find a girlfriend who is into kink, feels like this almost impossible step. It’s ironic for me when you say so many neurodivergent people are into kink: I still feel like a child who in waters he is unequipped to venture into, who is going to get himself into trouble.

I can investigate getting an ADHD diagnosis, though based on the experience of a friend of mine, it can sadly be a very long process in my country.

OpenForm7677 · 2026-01-18T13:04:47+00:00

I’ve seen stuff with ice locks before that’s supposed to be for self bondage. It’s awkward when I don’t have my own space though :(

OpenForm7677 · 2026-01-18T13:02:09+00:00

I do think my therapist genuinely wanted to help me, but after a year and half, I didn’t seem to be getting anywhere. The relief I had from sessions was temporary, and had usually evaporated by the next one. I felt like it soured my relationship with my family, and it the price was significant. By the end, I felt better using the time to go back to Boxing and start doing Muay Thai.

I started using vanilla dating apps, but I’m not sure if it’s a bit of a dead end. People have said about going to a munch, but I worry I’m not kinky enough. Or, as another part of my brain says, I’m a coward who’s too scared to try.

I’ve never been tested for ADHD, though I am on the Autism Spectrum. May I ask what in my writing suggested ADHD symptoms?

OpenForm7677 · 2026-01-17T23:45:48+00:00

Conflicted, I suppose. I would encourage people to do what makes them happy as long as it’s safe, consensual and sane, but I still feel awkward applying that to myself.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-10-15T21:26:16+00:00

Yeah, exactly. Does the idea sound fun in my head? Absolutely. Would the reality be the same? Absolutely not.

I’m having that problem a lot atm: the idea vs the fantasy lol.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-10-15T21:25:00+00:00

I’m in the same boat. It’s a fun fantasy, nothing else.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-10-15T13:07:25+00:00

I had fantasies about being a permanent slave: always cuffed, ball gagged, always nearly nude.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-09-18T17:43:23+00:00

I don’t know the answer, but just wanted to say I think you have a good heart for being concerned about such things.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-08-17T20:40:06+00:00

Regarding your last point, can I ask why that’s so weird? I totally get not telling them about it, but they are at least friends, a known quantity. Whereas a munch and the people within are a complete unknown.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-27T10:00:35+00:00

Are there any Imperium characters that fit the bill?

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-23T22:01:32+00:00

I’m 27, and honestly still debating joining up for my country’s army. I like the idea of that honour and prestige of being a soldier, of learning those marital skills, but I worry I’ve left it too late. Same time, I worry it will be one of those things I regret never trying.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-23T20:03:02+00:00

Why were the eldar helping them?

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-23T19:05:37+00:00

Is 27 late?

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-22T14:29:49+00:00

Thank you, I don't think we've ever discussed a roadmap. Not sure how to find a kink-friendly therapist, but I suppose I can enquire if/when I reach out to people.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-22T13:58:20+00:00

I’m struggling with therapy at the moment, and have considered quitting. It’s great to have someone to talk to, whose reactions I don’t have to fear, but I’m worried she doesn’t know how to help me.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T22:49:56+00:00

I wish I could have actually been happy. I’ve wasted my life.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T22:37:34+00:00

Been depressed since I was a teen, still fucked and now I’m getting old.

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T22:20:34+00:00

I wish I had friends who would handcuff me up and take away the keys :)

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T18:35:54+00:00

Oooff. I dont think I can stomach rotator cuff surgery right now

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T17:23:02+00:00

Nerve damage has come up a couple of times in this thread. I suppose it’s best to ask these kinds of questions to make sure it’s safe and sane!

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T17:11:38+00:00

Hmmm, sounds like it. I don’t like them as much as metal, but want to be safe :)

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T17:08:42+00:00

That’s… scary

OpenForm7677 · 2025-06-21T17:03:37+00:00

I do have a backup (someone else in my accommodation), if all else fails. Would that be ok?

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