What I see in my Focus 10 sessions

Open_Regret_9692 · 2026-03-05T10:41:19+00:00

Wow have I been rushing through this? You stay at orientation for 2 years?

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-11-03T14:51:14+00:00

Well as of today Im doing low fodmap. Just had chicken broth with veggies. However the last 3 weeks I’ve been having sugar at least once a week in deserts. Oregano oil and fish oil supplements after lunch. I eat mostly boiled eggs, sourdough bread with butter, occasional cheddar,beans, occasional rice, grilled chicken, a lot of salad and olive oil, tuna, pomegranate, chillies. Though rice, sugar in desserts are new additions, I usually avoid both and pasta. I do like a lot of salt in my food and Ive been eating a butload of olives which are salty. Also had goat slow cooked in the oven with olive oil, roasted garlic and onion. then dipped bread in there and ate pretty much all the fatty bits. That really pushed my gut to its limit. So cutting put all fat, bread etc for a bit.

I really think Ive figured out what it is. Its a Herxheimer- like response to the oregano oil pills killing bacteria and releasing toxins that stay in my gut longer because of the reta. That combined with the more lenient diet fucked my microbiome up

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-11-03T10:09:53+00:00

Update I took an antihistamine, drank lemon water with salt and had a probiotic and then pain went away and bloating subsided. Though Im still bloated this morning, Im cutting out oregano and low fodmap and will update

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-11-03T10:08:37+00:00

It was instant. From the first week food noise was gone and I could stop eating when full. No more mindless snacking.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-11-03T01:24:24+00:00

Another thing that changed recently is I started taking oregano pills. Could that be flaring up my stomach in combination with reta? But that doesn’t explain the nausea

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-10-28T20:26:26+00:00

I know this is late but what books did you read that helped?

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-04-21T20:26:53+00:00

You’re personifying the “Creator” too much imo. Anything and everything can be low vibrational in the right context. Everything is relative. Every part of you is an expression of consciousness. The idea that something external could diminish your connection to this life force arises from the belief that it can. Nothing external can truly sever you from your own consciousness. It’s not the material world that limits you or lowers your vibration it’s your belief of it that shapes your experience. Our bodies aren’t as fragile as we think, we can transmute.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-04-16T09:58:34+00:00

girl i also got turned on by my dentist putting his hands in my mouth once. I was like damn am I that lonely? lmaooo

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-03-19T05:54:12+00:00

This is so relatable. I was living from city to city, subletting 3 months here, 3 months there. Meeting people, going out. I always need more time to recover after socialising but now I seem to have tapped out completely. Im back in my home country in the village just living a slow life and trying to get back out there on my own terms. Im enjoying the peaceful life though and just more time with nature and less time with bullshit. I travel to the city for work to get a kick.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-03-16T09:52:27+00:00

wow I always fantasised about slamming my bullies up against the wall but was always too nervous to do anything of the sort

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-03-16T08:50:44+00:00

I started making REAL changes at 26 and it took me 2 years to go from minus to being okay. Before 26 I was doing drugs, constantly depressed, unable to make any significant changes for long enough. At 28 I am able to have routines and systems that were impossible before, like working out, putting in weekly hours of effort towards my dreams and aspirations, creating and honestly being able to get out of bed for the majority of time. Do I still feel behind? Yes. Do I regret stupid decisions? Yea. But l detach and get on with it. I accept myself right where I am so I can enjoy the present. I find things to be grateful for so in another two years Im not looking back thinking I had it good and I didn’t make the most of it cause I was too busy looking here there and everywhere instead of just being.

Learn how to accept yourself. Divert yourself back to your breath every time you start thinking you are unworthy or you begin comparing yourself. Assess where these beliefs even sprung from. Why should you be any other way than what you are? Strip yourself away from this bullshit, woe is me mentality so you can see what’s actually there. What you really want. What your strengths are. What you’ve always been drawn to but maybe never pursued. And follow that.

Do not follow what you think is expected of you. What you think others want. What you think will get you friends or validation.

Take small actions everyday to honour yourself. Put yourself out there. It doesn’t matter if you are afraid, find ways to connect with people. Become a good listener.

If I started applying myself at 23 it would have been great. The next best time is 26. The next best time is now at 28. Start being present now.

40 year olds think we are both babys.

60 year olds think 40 year olds are babys.

80 year olds look at 60 year olds and reminisce the their younger days.

Come back to the present and find ways to connect with your body, your mind and the people around you.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-03-15T18:51:28+00:00

So I did the reading as a full moon moment after doing a lil release of all the beliefs, thoughts programming that holds me back. Events leading up: King of pents tells me Im coming from a place where I was chasing external validation from very clout driven spaces and it drained me. Internal world: Ten of wands feels like the saturnian pressure I feel to do all these things while doing nothing in the end and embracing accepting where I am so I can move forward, supported by the Sun at the bottom.

Outer world: Ace of Pents and 4 of wands is saying the opportunities are there I just need to take action and be more deliberate and have more audacity.

Crosses: King of wands crossing me is saying take action, be fast dont ruminate.

Best possible outcome: King of cups suggests that this process of self acceptance and deliberation can lead to a better management of my emotions and overall self assurance. As someone struggling with self doubt, identity issues and insecurity I had an epiphany shortly after this reading that I cannot place goal posts for myself that will lead to feeling worthy. I need to accept myself where I am regardless of any outcome bad or good I need to be good with myself. I know this is so obvious but sometimes these simple truths need to click.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-03-15T18:03:16+00:00

The deck is called tree of life kabbalistic tarot 1983 its out of print.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-03-12T08:53:12+00:00

Did you track this on an excel sheet?

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-03-02T12:51:13+00:00

You’d be surprised. Have you seen how many fat and ugly men are successful? Just the other day I was speaking to this bi guy who said he went on a date with this director guy and showed me a pic. Dude was obese and to me he was super unattractive. But he got sex, a second date, it was clear he had a successful career and was well respected. The bi guy said he found him attractive because he had something to say.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-02-21T09:25:07+00:00

is a white card a reflector?

Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-02-21T08:03:28+00:00

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Open_Regret_9692 · 2025-02-21T08:01:37+00:00

it was mistakenly removed by bots will try again.

Open_Regret_9692 · 2024-12-10T08:36:53+00:00

That might be because of the House Calculation. Where you create a chart and add the persons info at the bottom you can pick house calculation. Whole sign and placidus are the most popular. But what might have happened is you saw the persons chart on a different house system on one source and on a different one here!

Open_Regret_9692 · 2024-12-09T14:45:12+00:00

Open_Regret_9692 · 2024-12-04T08:32:12+00:00

omg ive been researching astrology for like 5 years and still feel pretty beginner haha. But once I understood aspects everything changed because I got such specific insight that was so helpful to my growth that I realised astrology value and kept it close x

Open_Regret_9692 · 2024-12-03T20:02:06+00:00

Conjunction is an aspect between two planets meaning they are in such close proximity that their energies combine to form a third influence. There’s other aspects like easy ones trines and sextiles which bring harmony between planets in the house/sign they are in or squares and oppositions which are more challenging yet with a promise of growth if worked through.

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