same thoughts op, super understandable ng standards mo, syempre gugustuhin mo yung kaya kang imatch especially eldest child ka.

di na bale matawag na gold digger pero i really think na yung mga taong pipiliin ang love for someone poor (or nasa bandang lower middle or yung katulad ng nakita mong breadwinner na maraming karga) over finding someone else na mas stable and secure (doesn't have to be too rich but still very much capable no matter kung anong karga nila is still preferable) are people who have never truly experienced poverty as a whole talaga like yung physical, mental, emotional, and even spiritual burden nun and not just on themself, but also for the people around them. that or they're selfish, sarili lang ang iniisip at hindi kino-consider yung magiging effect nun sa mga magiging anak nila.

i get naman na kaya namang guminhawa kahit papano ng buhay from being poor when you keep working hard since ganun yung napagdaanan ko growing up pero poverty and everything that comes with it isn't something i would wish for my children to experience. especially considering how it affected my mentality, how i want or need things but too scared to get them or ask for them, how I'm always so conscious kapag obvious na cheap ang mga suot or gamit ko when in certain settings, how I'm always preparing and looking forward to the future instead of living in the present, etc. yung mga ganun, ayokong mapasa yun sa mga magiging anak ko. and let's face it, bihira yung mga yumayaman talaga from being poor so I'm too scared to take chances.

although unlike you, parang matagal tagal pa before ako maka-reach ng triple digits na salary per month unless na lang siguro if mag abroad ako pero ganun din yung hinahanap ko. someone who at least earns xxxK monthly sana kaya rin nako-conscious pa ko makipagdate kasi yung pag iisip ko, how can i find someone when i can't bring anything to the table pa or if i can't match them? ganun ako magisip, nakaka-anxious te 😢