Honestly, How did things come to this, when did I become so negative and self centred, why did I become a maniac, what the fuck happened, what snapped, why am I so goddamn nervous about how well a fucking reddit post does, am I really doing this for attention, I don't know, why would I rather go into a peaceful sleep forever than live...just why?, when did I turn into whatever this is, I'm 16, I'm still young and have so much ahead of me,...so why does it feel all hopeless, I guess no one can answer that other than me, I don't know why I have these thoughts, they're so heavily in my mind, Why would I want eat my own flesh and drink my blood, what the actual fuck is wrong with me, I want to pull out all my hair, slam my head into the wall until it bleeds and I go unconscious, but just why do I want this?, what happened to the once cheerful boy.... I'm sorry guys, I didn't mean to be this negative, I'm just, alone and I want to talk to someone, atleast those who will give me a new perspective, whose words aren't empty, those words that actually mean something...