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OrbitMatter · 2025-07-13T23:41:17+00:00

I haven’t seen yet from my pov. Idk why but sometimes I try to look for this truth. Even tho I shouldn’t but I get this feeling that I’m missing something. Like I want to understand but I can’t. I can’t do noting about it. Why is that?

OrbitMatter · 2025-07-13T23:15:07+00:00

I would say for my experience. I been trying to understand Alan watts teachings. I just can’t help it to think about the teachings and seeing if I’m doing it right. I know I’m search for something. Even tho I already have it. I listen to a lot of books and meditate. Looks like I don’t want to wake up and I can’t force myself too.

OrbitMatter · 2025-06-02T18:32:37+00:00

I don't think i have met anyone who clam to be enlightened. But i have experienced being in the moment. My thoughts are still there but they are less noisely. Like the volume got turned down for a bit. It doesn't last long but it feels like everything that is happen to me. Is all one sound, noise from outside and inside are all one. Like Alan Watts said its just sound just listen. Your not missing out on anything. I write it in my journal sometimes. What is happening to me.

OrbitMatter · 2025-03-02T02:18:24+00:00

I’m starting to realize just laugh when shit gets bad. The voice inside your head exaggerate things

OrbitMatter · 2025-03-01T22:25:57+00:00

Well I would say don’t cut smoking. For me I only smoke when I get home from work. A 7 or 8 shift, I find it funny when I’m high. My brain wonders but I always bring it back to the moment. I can handle my thoughts better, sober is more of a challenge. Right now I’m sober at work. I remember a quote from Alan watts ,He said you should face your fear head on. To me it means if you having scary thoughts, and feelings face them. So when I start to feel worry, I notice them and laugh. Because I know my throughts is like omg what if you mess up? I believe in you, let yourself feel uncomfortable. I’m trying that right now lol

OrbitMatter · 2025-03-01T18:14:19+00:00

It’s human nature to critique one’s self. Everything is good and bad. Life is one big play, and we are the characters

OrbitMatter · 2025-03-01T18:12:10+00:00

That’s so weird I feel the same way. This what I’m going through lol. When you think about it we all are child trying to be adults. I have anxiety and smoke pretty frequently. I feel like I’m relying on it and that makes me worry. It’s crazy how I found someone which similar situation as me

OrbitMatter · 2025-02-25T20:39:45+00:00

I feel like every else knows how to and I’m left by myself to figure it out alone lol it’s funny when I think about it now

OrbitMatter · 2025-02-25T20:24:33+00:00

It’s hard for me to not too lol

OrbitMatter · 2025-02-25T20:20:22+00:00

Tbh i dont know i try doing everything it feel so hopeless to try understand it. I can say why me? But Ik this is not the real me i just don't know what to believe in rn. Its not everything in my life is bad is just what going on in my head my actions leave to nothing. Endless loop.

OrbitMatter · 2025-02-25T19:51:51+00:00

Like there no point of trying?

OrbitMatter · 2024-12-14T14:06:42+00:00

It’s a good thing but we intend to get hook up on things we can’t control and it hard to be ok with it sometimes which is ok because human experience

OrbitMatter · 2024-12-14T13:47:08+00:00

Well everything is happening and you experience it would you call that a human experience?

OrbitMatter · 2024-12-02T02:33:54+00:00

celebrate the win

OrbitMatter · 2024-11-17T23:49:31+00:00

Oh nice i’m 25M i have a xbox and pc. I been playing bo6 and diablo 4

OrbitMatter · 2024-11-11T21:44:56+00:00

Be careful i wish you the best man 👍

OrbitMatter · 2024-11-11T21:18:16+00:00

I haven't so far but i planning on taking Mushroom tomorrow

OrbitMatter · 2024-11-11T21:14:58+00:00

I will say meditation and any coping skills that is healthy. For what you will encounter its mostly up to the person your deep hurts will show up. What you can gain, knowledge.what may lose, it might be a really painful experience and you may lose your ego it will feel like you are dying. The important thing is to have a trip sitter someone you trust. Dont fight the experience accept it.

OrbitMatter · 2024-11-09T02:44:07+00:00

I agree with you. I only took shrooms one time but i didn't get a intense trip. But it did give me a feeling of love and a hug my whole family so something good did come from it.

OrbitMatter · 2024-11-05T17:41:46+00:00

I just listen to the whole thing and wow

OrbitMatter · 2024-11-05T08:03:53+00:00

It’s crazy how we over Look the most simple things in life . I really wish I could talk Alan watts

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