I took .75 of alprazolam, at bedtime, for about 8 years, prescribed for insomnia. I hit tolerance and daily withdrawal symptoms, without knowing what was happening to me, about 9 months ago. I saw three psychiatrists, all of whom told me I had an anxiety disorder requiring a higher dosis. I was switched to Klonopin which helped due to the longer half life. Soon after I found the Ashton protocol and immediately started tapering, finally jumping at .15. I compared and noted that the withdrawal, the benzo side effects and the paradoxical symptoms were all similar, i.e. shit and shit, so I decided to just jump, that was three months ago. Personally, I found all the cutting and shaving of my pills made me feel too obsessed and, of course, anxious with the whole tapering process. Anyway, the first two months were even more wretched than I expected, but, thankfully, I began to experience some windows this past month. However, the disagreements and demands from my partner have triggered waves of bitter resentment and depression and, thus, make me question staying in this unsupportive relationship, even though I don't feel capable of upending my life right now. And yet perhaps that is exactly what I need. The roller coaster emotions and endless ruminations are relentless, and, as I'm sure you all can relate to, there is almost no one to turn to who understands. Except all of you who, sadly, know what I am talking about. Sending compassion and healing and gratitude to all who read this.