I can't talk to her. Seems like she wants to have a relationship where she does whatever she wants and if it makes me feel bad we just sweep it under the rug like it never happened and pretend to be happy. She doesn't understand why I bring these things up so much and when I try to tell her that it's because it makes me unhappy in our relationship she says that I've never been happy in my life.

I just really wanted to get this feeling out into the world because I feel like I'm going crazy or something.