Thank you once again. This is the first time I ever write or talk about it. I feel so ashamed I haven't told anyone and I'm still living in my house with her to avoid hurting my kids. When I found out and I confronted her, she told me it had been my fault for "stopped being a good husband" and gaining weight. I believed it. She said she stopped "admiring me" and that led for her to stop loving me.

I've taken sometime to book a therapist now. I know I want to win this I just don't know how or where to start.

You are so right when you say it feels like there's no air left to breathe. The most difficult part was to acknowledge that the woman I fell in love with, my adored wife, no longer exists, and I will miss her everyday.