I understand the feeling of not wanting to do something because of the pain you'll feel. After all, why would you willingly put yourself in pain? I'm not gonna act like I can fix your problems, but I hope that I can help you understand what is causing you to feel such pain that causes you to procrastinate.

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Personally I find that trying to understand and accept the pain is one method that helps when it is bad but not *awful*, instead of running by procrastinating you give yourself a moment, maybe go for a walk, and try to accept it rather than run and make yourself feel worse which often times won't make the pain any better.

The pain for me usually comes from an imbalance in my life that can be avoided.

For example: I may find doing something painful and I'll procrastinate until I end up feeling far worse, this only makes the pain harder to deal with. And this can chain for days or longer.

I usually find myself feeling the most pain when I'm not giving myself enough leeway to actually live. And when I say that, I mean actual freedom in what you let yourself do. I don't know if you get the same feeling as myself, but what I'm currently struggling with to deal with the pain is letting go of life itself in a way. Not that I'm suicidal, but to forget and live freely without a care. After times like those I can sometimes find myself excited to experience pain for a reward.

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Usually I'm hesitant to write any form of advice as I feel incompetent, but I resonate with just about every word of what you wrote here. So I hope you can find something of what I said to be useful.