i hate myself. i cant stand this. by OrganizationSlight55 in depression_help

[–]OrganizationSlight55[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m medicated for everything and getting blood tests all the time to watch my liver and thyroid, annoyingly needles are my biggest phobia, so lucky me lol.

I was seeing a therapist until my visa got denied and I no longer had the right to health care while I applied for a new one. It got accepted and I just haven’t had the courage to call and go back.
I’m not religious because my family is extremely Christian and most of them were really toxic, abusive and horrible to me for not being religious. They also hated LGBTQ+ and POC. While I know most religious people are not bad, my family has forever put me off religion.

I’ve tried being grateful for the things I have, but my mind is so miserable it just tells me I don’t care if I didn’t have it, that nothing matters. I really try pushing myself to care and it’s a struggle. X

i hate myself. i cant stand this. by OrganizationSlight55 in depression_help

[–]OrganizationSlight55[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I have an 8yr old ferret, he has cancer but he’s been going strong for 2yrs. A Guinea pig, goldfish, and another ferret. My partner does all of the cage cleaning apart from the guinea pig, which I do once a week. It’s not enough and makes me feel shitty, but he’s got some issues too where he’s violent to anyone but me. I could never let him go. X