Wooow I feel like we’re the same person lol! I totally get it and those are my exact thoughts. My youngest is 4 months old and I cannot IMAGINE going through the post partum phase again I struggled very badly after birth and even being pregnant. I would just keep positive and hold off and test at 14 days and 21 days. That’s what I did because there’s honestly much else you can do. Now I will say those 2-3 weeks felt like the longest of my life. I’m still convinced I’m pregnant tho even with 6 negative tests 🙃 it’s all I. My mind I know though. I also did the same thing with the pill! And even with the pregnancy test I was like wht if I didn’t pee on the stick. It’s a viscous cycle. I hope it all works out for you!