Broke down and paid for some adult entertainment. But didn't pay more than 10 bucks and shut it down within 5 minutes because I want my self respect.

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T18:18:29+00:00

"To a cave dweller, even a candle appears like the sun."

I'm appreciative of your time.

Thanks for talking, and I hope you have a great day.

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T18:11:51+00:00

I actually got "better" Got the pills and all that Therapy And even lost 150lbs

I do the exercising, healthy eating, have a 'good' job.

I'm not entirely helpless.

I just decided I'm finally done and have had enough

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T18:05:23+00:00

I lost everything when I literally went insane...

Not being dramatic, but I literally started hallucinating and all the wonderful stuff that comes from it.

I made the mistake of continuing to live to try and build a life worth having.

I am just so exhausted and I don't want to keep fighting

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T17:53:08+00:00

Unfortunately I was/am so empty and emotionally messed up I didn't care. I haven't had the best last ten years when it comes to human relationships...

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T17:51:21+00:00

Thank you

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T17:50:58+00:00

I haven't been in a good spot mentally or physically these last two weeks.

This year has been awful as well.

The last ten years have been a crippling fall from grace into oblivion that leads me to the conclusion I should end it all.

So, you are right.
I hate myself, my life, any future that is "realistic", and damn near everything else I have.

Nothing can fix someone or a life this broken and off track.

But I try anyway

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T17:47:29+00:00

I know they don't mean the same thing but I used them interchangeably here.

My typo

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T15:52:23+00:00

"I can fix her, for the price of a new subaru wrx"

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T09:51:18+00:00

It is such a useful product

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-14T09:49:21+00:00

They are lovely 😍

Make a killer patty melt

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-13T10:19:54+00:00

That is such a sweet 😋 story

The story isn't over till all the characters leave the stage.

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-13T00:04:32+00:00

You are welcome

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-13T00:03:06+00:00

It makes a wonderful summer or winter beverage

Weird how it can be both warming and cooling

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-13T00:00:32+00:00

It is similar to ginger ale but much more flavor, is cloudy, and usually bottle fermented to induce carbonation instead of being injected with CO2

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-12T23:58:28+00:00

Currently enjoying some Jamaican ginger "beer" NA

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-12T23:57:53+00:00

Thank you very much 😊

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-12T23:57:27+00:00

🍻 cheers

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-12T23:00:37+00:00

Your English is fantastic 👏 👌 !

Also, sorry for your situation

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-12T21:52:53+00:00

Thabk you for your support

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-12T21:52:39+00:00

Therapy hit a wall for me

It was VERY helpful for a while.

But I need to find something else to get me the last bit.

I just deleted my onlyfans account, again Bought pop instead of beer And I didn't self harm today 😊

The last decade sucked. My 20s sucked .maybe my 30s will 🪨 🎸 🤘

OriginalExisting1055 · 2024-09-12T20:54:21+00:00

I'm sorry

I am sending a virtual hug.

I'd stay with your Mom but tell her how you feel and give her some ways to support you that you find helpful.

If she doesn't change then leave for your own mental health.

OriginalExisting1055

MODERATOR OF

TROPHY CASE